Namjoon's POV
My nights have been terrible.
Two weeks have passed since the last time Tae entered our room and with each passing day I feel more alienated from him and ours.
If ever there was really anything ours.
Instead, he is limited to being with me only when the others are around,¿: in recordings he always chooses to have lunch with Jungkook or Jimin, in the afternoons he spends it in the study locked up with him or in Jimin's room. He spends so much time there that Hobi was practically banished to Jungkook's room, not that he cares much about him; At least not how it matters to me.
It's hard to describe how he feels every time Taehyung walks into the house, when he ignores my existence and then walks over to Jimin with a smile; It is torture for me that I try to solve everything by saying 'good morning' to him or smiling at him every time I see him.
I have come to wonder how far he ends the distance from him for my proposal and begins the affection that he will have for Jimin. Before I thought it was entirely for myself, after he left without looking back I thought it would be best to leave him for a while until the waters calmed down; however my calm went fuck itself that same Saturday.
Taehyung had to go into the room to get some clothes to take to his new temporary room, and I was there. He didn't speak to me but it wasn't necessary either: while I was sitting on my bed watching him pack I noticed his hesitation, his nerves and also his fragility; I could feel that he was still mine... that is until Jimin came in to help him.
It was that lover's tone of coming to his side and brushing against him on purpose as he packed up, those crooked smiles and downcast gazes that convinced me. In less than two minutes he had already shown his power over Taehyung, my Taehyung.
But that was not all, the following days I was able to spy on them to the kitchen, where they smiled embracing; and then in the recordings when they left out of the blue and returned minutes later with rosy cheeks. Jimin was stealing what I should be doing with Taehyung... I don't even want to imagine what they were doing in those minutes, nor in the nights they shared. One thing he was sure of: he hadn't touched him yet. I knew because several nights he also took the opportunity to stay in front of his door waiting for some sound that never came, and then my breath returned to my body when I realized that even with all the suspicion they were still keeping some distance.
At least that was still mine. But for how long?
Not much, that's for sure.
"Have you decided what to do?" I turn to see Yoongi Hyung with his arms crossed behind me. He keeps his lips reddish, probably from kissing Jin during the break. We are rehearsing for boy with luv performances; finally the mini album is complete and now we have to do all the promotions.
"Would I be like this if I knew it?" My hands are in my pockets. In front of my friend and me are Taehyung and Jimin talking...with their hands intertwined between them, hidden.
"Jesus, it was just a question."
"Well, I don't want to hear it." I sigh and we both look at the couple on stage who are now laughing as she stares at each other. "It's impossible..."
"What?"
"Every day I waste trying to get an idea to get it back is one more day I'm close to losing him."
"Well, what can I tell you...I still can't believe that Jimin is gay."
"That's the least of it," I confess, Yoongi Hyung looks at me "it seems that he is serious..." he laughs to himself.
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Nights in the Studio - Taejoon
FanficTaehyung and Namjoon have been bandmates since 2013, nevertheless, the feelings of the younger have been there pretty much since he met the other, as his fear of being rejected (as he once was) has kept him shut. But, what will happen after Namjoon...