Starting Over The End

Chapter 27

Chapter 27

Belle’s POV

I fell on my knees when I saw my Lablab.

How?

 Why?

Galit, tanong, and worries are eating me up. Galit sa mga gumawa kay Lablab nito. Tanong kung bakit kailangan pa niyang mabugbog? Umabot sa halos magpatayan na? Worries, kung kakayanin pa ba naming ang mga susunod, thinking that they are just starting. Fck it! Everything is just starting! We’re just starting our relationship!

We have a long journey to take pa. Marami pa kaming dapat pagdaanan. There’s a lot of things that we need to experience together!

Konti na nga lang yung oras ko eh, babawasan pa nila? How selfish could this people get?!

I hate them! I hate them so much that I’ll die hating them!

I dragged myself to my Lablab, to hold his hand, his bruised hand. Slowly, I kissed it. I wanted to feel his touch in my face just like those times. I just wanted to hold him tight right now, but I couldn’t! Damn those people.

“Lablab, gising ka na. Hindi pa tayo tapos mag-enroll. We need to pay our tuition pa. Please? Gusto ko pang mag-aral so wakey-wakey na.”

Para akong siraulo na nanggigising ng tulog. Tulog naman si Lablab di ba? Tulog lang siya sa pagod.

I kissed his forehead and at the same time Tita Maureen came. “Are you done? You both need to rest,” she said nonchalantly.

“It’s okay po. I wanted to be on his side when he wakes up.” Inayos ko na rin yung itsura ko. I wiped out the tears on my face with my bare hand.

“But I don’t want you to be there.” Ang sakit. “Arabelle, I have nothing against you. You’re such a sweet girl. In fact, I like you. Pero, nakikita mo naman siguro…magulo kapag pinilit niyo pa. Ang daming nasasaktan at masasaktan. Tama na. Maybe, this is the sign that you two had the right love at the wrong time. You can be together, but not now. Muntikan na si Cloud. Eh paano sa susunod?”

It hit me. Paano nga naman sa susunod?

Ayoko na rin namang may madamay pa.

Ang sakit isipin na kailangan kong bumitaw para sa ikabubuti ng marami. Ang sakit-sakit. Bakit kailangan pa kasi para sa kanila? Gusto ko ulit maging selfish! Pero, yung pagiging selfish ko kinasasakit ng marami. Edi hindi rin ako sasaya. Hindi rin kami sasaya ni Lablab kung yung mga tao sa paligid namin nasasaktan.

“Arabelle, nakikiusap ako bilang nanay. Isuko mo na. You’re the only one who can stop this. Kapag ayaw mo na, wala nang magagawa si Cloud. Maybe, he’ll be wasted for months pero he’ll be fine, the people around you will be fine. Walang gulo, walang sakitan.”

Gagawin nga ba ni Cloud yun? He’s still selfless.

“Naiintindihan kong kailangan mo si Cloud in you’re short life…sorry that I have to say it,” tumango lang ako kay Tita Maureen. I just don’t know what to say anymore.

Yun na nga eh, short life. Hindi pa nila maibigay.

“Tita aalis po kayo?” I managed to ask as I noticed the passports in the table.

“Belle magpahinga ka na.”

“Tita? Dadalin niyo na talaga si Cloud sa States?” Tita Maureen nodded and sat on the couch. “Tita? Agad-agad? Hindi na po ba makakapaghintay? Tita please? Kahit hanggang kaya ko pa magsayaw…I want him to watch me dance. Please?”

Tita Maureen’s silence is killing me! I feel like any of my words won’t change a thing. So I tried my actions.

“Arabelle,” she called my name in a motherly way. “Stand up,” she commanded.