Between the Fallen Memories

Chapter 23

Chapter 23

"What?! He said that to you? Pang-ilang beses na 'yan?"

Faye was utterly shocked the moment I told them what happened between Elias and I. Nandito na naman kasi ako sa apartment nila kasi tumakas ako sa bahay.

"Shocked yarn? Parang just now, ah," Arci said while looking at her notes.

Kompleto kaming lahat dito ngayon. Van and Avy are just sitting at the sofa, listening. Arci is studying and Faye is facing me like her whole attention was into me. Ganoon siya ka chismosa pagdating sa amin ni Elias.

"I mean, alam naman naming lahat na gustong-gusto ka no'n since grade nine ka pa lang. He was very vocal about his feelings for you and now he's telling you that he'll wait!" she was being exaggerated. "Kahit walang kasiguraduhan pa 'yun, ha?" she tsked. "Ano bang ginawa mo sa past life mo at ganon ka ka-swerte?"

"Anong swerte r'yan, e, hindi nga' yan magustuhan ng crush niya." Nagtaas ng kilay si Avy nang harapin ko siya.

I glared at her. "Gusto mo sikmuraan kita?"

"It's true, though," Van countered.

"Sige, ganyanin niyo lang ako. Kung kayo magkagusto sa isang tao tapos hindi kayo magugustuhan pabalik, who you kayo sa'kin!"

"As if that would ever happen," Van said.

"Bitter talaga nito," saad ni Faye at itinuro si Van.

"Sinabi mo pa," utas ko at ngumuso.

"Oh, tapos anong sunod? Hanggang doon nalang ba 'yung chika mo? Wala nang kasunod? Kung ganon makakaalis ka na," sabi ni Faye at iginiya pa ang direksyon ng pintuan.
"W-well... He asked me kung bakit... Bakit daw hindi siya." I stuttered because of nervousness. I can still feel the pain in his every word like it wa knives shot directly through my heart.

Napalunok ako.

"What the fucking fuck! Ang sakit non!" Hinampas niya ako sa braso ng ilang beses. "Ano sagot mo?"

"Because you're not Elijah," I repeated what I said to Elias but with regret in my tone.

"Tangina. Gago. Inutil. Bwakanangshit. What the fuck. Yawa." She literally said all of the curse word that I know. "What the fuck ka, bakit 'yun ang sinagot mo? Tangina. Sakit, gago."

"Bibig mo, Alana," sita ni Arci sa pinsan niya.

Hindi na iyon pinansin ni Faye at binigyan niya lang ako ng 'why-did-you-do-that' look.

"You could've said something nicer than that," wika ni Van sa mababang tono.

"As if what she said was nice?" saad ni Avy, tunog sarkastiko.

"Well, it was an honest answer, though. She doesn't like him because he's not Elijah, the she really likes." Van shrugged.

"Yeah, but he doesn't deserve that. All he did was show his feelings with clear intentions. Kawawa naman ang manok ko," Avy pouted.

Tinapik ni Faye ang balikat ko kaya mula kay Avy at Van, ibinaling ko ang tingin ko sakanya.

"Hindi mo ba talaga siya gusto?" tanong niya.

I find it hard to answer that abrupt question.

If I answer yes, that would be a lie.

But I'm not also sure to answer no, because there is guilt that keeps on bugging me that prolly won't let me sleep tonight if I answer no.

"Kasi kung hindi, pwede akin nalang?" aniya, parang nasasayangan. "Alam mo, ang swerte mo. Saan ka pa makakahanap ng lalaking gwapo, soccer player, future engineer, vocal sa feelings niya sayo, can make you feel in peace, hindi ka bibigyan ng mixed signals, super bait, family oriented, pwede pa maging tutor mo, matalino, lahat-lahat na ng greenflag na sa kanya."