Sun and Moon

Sa'yo Na Lang - 29th January

"Pumayag na nga akong samahan ka dito sa condo mo kasi alam kong mami-miss mo 'ko! The least you can do is order food, papagurin mo pa akong magluto." I said and rolled my eyes while crossing my arms.

"Don't you pity me? Ayaw mo ba akong bigyan ng one last chance to taste your cooking?" He said and pouted. Lumuhod pa siya sa tapat ko habang nakaupo ako sa couch. He hugged my legs while pouting in between them and looking directly to my eyes.

He just knows how to get me always! Konting titig at konting pa-cute, alam niyang bumibigay ako. Well I did really want to cook for him, gusto ko lang siyang makitang nagmamakaawa. After all, Mike's leaving in a few hours and I'd really like it for him to taste my cooking for the last time. He might not even come back pagkarating niyang New York. At least when he gets there, he'll remember that I cooked the last food he ate here in Manila.

"Fine! Anong gusto mo?" I said and stood up. Naglakad na akong papuntang kitchen para i-check 'yung refrigerator kung may puwede akong mailuto. But to my surprise, punong puno 'yung ref which was so rare kasi lagi lang siyang bumibili ng instant foods at fast food. 

"Ang taray mo naman, magpapa-fiesta ka ba bago ka umalis?" I asked sarcastically and laughed.

"Uy hindi, ano lang 'yan," Tumayo siya mula sa pagkakaluhod at kinamot 'yung ulo niya. "Ano lang kasi, para kapag umalis na ako, may makakain ka dito sa condo."

"What? Balak mo ba akong patirahin dito?" I said and laughed habang kinukuha 'yung ingredients na kailangan ko. Magluluto na lang ako ng nilagang baboy kasi favorite niya 'yon, buti na lang maraming laman 'yung ref.

"No, pero siyempre I'd be glad if you want to. Gusto mo sa'yo na lang condo ko?" He innocently asked and leaned on the countertop.

"Buang," I said and rolled my eyes. 

I started washing and chopping the ingredients when I felt Mike getting closer. I knew because his warmth was different. It was once my safest space, and now I can't even be too comfortable being that close with him. Suddenly, the chills and the butterflies were back. I felt his hands slip on my waist to hug me from the back. His chin was resting on the corner of my neck and left shoulder until he started to plant small kisses on that area. My heart was beating so fast.

"I'll miss you, Kelsey."

"Me too, Mike."

Naramdaman ko 'yung mabigat na buntong hininga niya. Nasanay na lang akong ginagawa niya 'yon whenever he's frustrated dahil simula pa lang nung trip namin, ginagawa niya na 'yon lagi. And when I asked for the first time why he was like that, he just told me he wanted to stay and we got into a fight. He's probably frustrated because he wants to talk about staying again pero alam niyang hindi ako matutuwa at mag-aaway lang ulit kami. Hindi ko na lang siya inintindi at nag-proceed na sa pagluluto. 

Habang pinapakuluan ko 'yung ulam, I left Mike in the living room at pumunta sa kwarto niya to make sure na dala niya na lahat ng kailangan niya such as passport, hygiene kit, and other more sa baggages niya. Bumalik ako sa may pinto para silipin si Mike, I just saw him reading a book on the couch nang bumalik 'yung tingin ko sa study desk niya at naroon pa rin 'yung planner niya.