Let Me Heal You

Chapter 22 A Dream or a Nightmare

Dabi's siblings are mentioned in this chapter and I'm not really sure of everyones' canonical ages so it might seem a little off.

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Dabi went back to the bar in Kamino because he couldn't crash at Nishinoya's, he was sure that'd be the first place Izanami would look for him. It had been months since the last time they were all here, back when things were easier. There was caution tape and the building was almost completely destroyed. He had to move a piece of dry wall to get inside. He looked around and the whole night replayed in his head. Then everything started replaying in his head. How much longer could he keep this up?

He walked in a little further and found a clean enough place to have a seat. He shrugged off his jacket even though it was fucken freezing out and frustratedly threw off his shirt to stared at his scared body.

Izanami could take them all way.

Dabi felt his face heat at the thought, then his whole body engulfed in flames. How could he be such a fuck up? How could he actually burn her when all she was trying to do was help him? He hurt her and now no matter how much he hated it, he was no better than his piece of shit father.

He wished he could've talked to Izanami, really talked to her about life. He knew so much about her it was almost unfair how little she knew about him. But maybe it was better that way.

Dabi got up from his sitting position, redressed, and exited the bar. He needed to get something. Maybe he didn't need to kill his father after all, he wasn't that good of a shot but he could practice.

He made his way to the current hideout, hoping no one was out looking for him yet. As soon as he got there he went straight for Shigaraki's room to rifle through his drawers and find the quirk erasing bullets. He'd only take one, he'd leave the rest for Shigaraki. He just needed one.

When he found the small box containing the little magic bullets he pocketed one and shut the drawer. He contemplated taking some money from the safe but thought against it. The others needed it more than him and he could always get his own. He peeked at the cabinet for liquor and smirked when he found an unopened bottle of bourbon. He was also lucky enough to find a box of crackers too.

Dabi took full swigs on the way back to the bar, he opted to crawl in instead of moving the drywall again. Shit was hanging on by a thread, if it fell apart there'd be nothing to shield him from everyones' veiw. He took his jacket off and bunched it up to use as a pillow before he started shoveling crackers in his mouth. After washing down the salty crackers with what was left of the bottle, he threw it across the room and relaxed when he heard it shatter.

He stared at the night stars from the missing roof. For the first time in a while, Dabi felt truly alone. He wrapped his arms around his torso and imagined he actually took the chance to hug Izanami back.

He forced himself to passed out before the spinning of the liquor could make him feel sick.

"Big brother Touya" an annoying little voice rang through trying to wake him up. "Wake up" it whispered impatiently.

"Let him sleep Natsuo, he's sleepy" a little girl sighed.

"But he promised!"

Dabi woke up to see his little brother pouting and his little sister pushing up her glasses ready to scold him.

"You're awake!" Natsuo cheered when he met his brother's blue eyes.

Dabi was confused, they looked young, really young, like before-he-left-young. He took in his surroundings and sat up in his bed. "What the fuck" he muttered, making Natsuo giggle and Fuyumi gasp.