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Chaos

Lizzie POV

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„Lizzie she's dead... and that for a long time now."
She answered after hesitation and my heart drops as I see how broken she looks.

Her words echoed in my head and seeing how empty she looks into the night sky kills me.
I expected a lot but not this.
Now everything makes sense to me. Why she treats her step mother the way she treats her.
She hates her because it's not her real mom.

„Nora I-."

„It's okay. Well it's not but I got used to it. You don't have to say anything." she interrupted while sniffing her nose.

„I'm sorry for this huge loss Nora. I can't imagine how this must feel but if there is anything I can do.
Let me know."

„don't Tell anyone. The only ones who know are my friends, my ex, my family and now surprisingly my professor. I don't wanna be reminded. I just want to forget. Saying those words out loud is just opening the wound again that I am trying to heal."

„I understand." I answered after some silence.

„But maybe talking about it can help. It can help to heal better." I added.

„No it doesn't. Talking about it only makes me angry and sad. I hate it. You won't understand."
She replied coldly.

„Then let me understand. Let me in."
I pleaded and she chuckled.

„Why? Why should I? So you would have another person to analyze? So that the pity in your eyes starts to grow. This is why I don't let anybody in. Because I get analyzed on why I behave the way I do. Except it the way it is and let me try to cope."

„For how long have you been coping?"

„For as long as I can remember. It doesn't matter okay. What matters is, is that-." she paused as she took in a deep breath to calm herself down from this emotional overflow.

„Is that what? Nora?"

„It doesn't matter. I've talked enough about it."
She closed up again and I feel like shit that she doesn't trust me enough.

„I think you should leave. It's... really late."
She whispered as she whipped away her tears.

„I won't leave."

„Please just go. I need to be alone right now and
This connection shouldn't even happen."
She wiggled with her finger between us.

„I'll see you in class Nora." I replied not wanting to leave but she really wants me to even though it doesn't look like it.

„Yeah. See you in class Professor." she answered in a whisper and I left...

Nora POV

„Alright everyone y'all know the drill run me some rounds I want you all to sweat for a good reason!! To become this years season champion!!" was all I heard after Scarlett whistled her pipe.

The whole team started running and I jogged along because I was able to get back into sports again.
Finally i was getting sick of not doing shit and being on the bench watching everyone play.