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Out of nothing

TW!!!!

Sadly again but I wanted to warn y'all before moving on.
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Lizzie POV

„Breaking News!! A green mustang with the car sign NL 7065 California crashed last night into the ocean. The car was pulled out empty which means that the driver either got out in time or died while drowning. The police notified the car sign which belongs to a College student names Nora Lewis..."

My coffee mug fell down onto the ground as I heard Nora's name getting mentioned by the reporter. I wasn't paying any attention until I heard her name and this made me look up to the screen.
I see a lady at the pier and behind her is a car that has been getting pulled out.

It really is Nora's car. Holy shit. My mind went into
a spiral as the realization started to hit me.

Di-did she commit suicide?

I was tapping behind me trying to find a spot to sit down but instead I slid down onto the ground with the back against the couch. Oh my god.

Is this why she was acting so distant and isolated? Did Victor drive her into this, was she thinking this was the only way out?
My face was already drained in tears and I wasn't able to catch a single breath. My chest tightness and the pain that has been spreading in my whole body kept me on the ground.

So many thoughts where rushing through my mind and I just wanted to wake up from this nightmare. The horror I've heard and the pain I fell Is unbearable and I don't know what to do.

Now that I think about it again, the last time that I saw her was at my wedding in the bathroom.
I felt it deep down that there was something going on in her mind that she didn't want to tell me.
I would have never thought it was this terrible.

She was so different that night. She looked at me so closely as if she was taking every detail of me in for one last time. How she hugged me and told me „I wish you the best.."

How? How did I not stop her? How could I be so blind? She was saying her last goodbye.
She had that black silky dress on with thin straps and a bare back. She was so skinny and she looked so tired.

How did I let her go? This is all my fault. I could have said something... anything to stop her from going and doing what she did.

„Oh Nora Why?" I mumbled as I was trying to get a hold of my tears but they kept falling on and on.

She must've felt so lonely in the past few weeks.
So isolated and only surrounded by Victor who didn't help her at all. He pushed her into doing this,  she could've just left him I don't get why she sticked beside him... I mean he had nothing in his hands to hold it against her so why is she thinking that she deserved Someone like him?

Cause she sure doesn't deserve him. She deserved so much more and better than someone who drove her to suicide. The way she changed into someone else was scary to watch. She wasn't noticeable at all and she completely lost her self during the whole time with him.

I can't even imagine how abusive he must've been cause I remember when I tried to get closer to her, she was so scared and even triggered.

I don't know for how long I've been sitting on the ground crawled up and crying my heart out but after some time I heard the door bell ring.
I didn't expect anyone and Robbie can't be here because he traveled off with his band after we got married. So I've been alone for weeks.

I wasn't able to get myself up so fast and I heard the door bell ring again now more often as if someone is impatient. I slumbered through the hallway and opened not knowing who is gonna be standing at my doorstep.

„Scar?" I asked surprised but my surprised expression turned into sadness yet again because I could see it in her face that she saw the horrific news just as I did. Her eyes where drained in red and slightly puffy.

„You saw it too?" I asked and she walked in embracing me in a hug which I needed so bad.

I closed the door while we where still hugging and I couldn't stop crying. She was sobbing quietly as well but I wasn't able to stay quiet as I was sobbing loudly. She stroked my head lightly trying to give me some sort of comfort but this gesture was the exact same one Nora did when she hugged me for the last time.

„It's okay. Let it out." she mumbled while hugging a bit tighter signing me that I can let myself go completely which I did.

„This is all my fault. I could have stopped her..."
I cried out and she shushed me.

„No. No it's not your fault. We couldn't know what she was thinking. Nobody does."

„I saw her last at my wedding. This was weeks ago.
I feel so terrible."

„I know me too." she replied and my heart breaks even more to know that we both haven't seen her after this event.

„She just left us. How could she think this was the only way out? We could have helped."

„I know. But people who are in this situation are drained from pain and suffering that they really see this as a solution to their problems." She explained and I know that she might be right.

„But it's not. This is never an option. She just gave up. She just left. Didn't she think of the people that she will leave behind? What about us?"

„We where just a coach and a professor to her.
What makes you think that she thinks of us? You saw what family she had. Everyone was hating her. Victor didn't treat her right and the only one she had was Beth I guess."

„There is more to it scar. I never told you because I thought you would judge me." I separated from the hug and she looked at me irritated. But after a moment the realization hit her. She understood what I was trying to tell her and she hugged me again.

„She was special to all of us. She just didn't see how special she was." she whispered and silent tears fell down onto her shoulder yet again.

She didn't judge me how I thought she would.
That I had something with Nora leaves her with almost no surprise which confuses me but I didn't think about it much.

I just want Nora back. For the love of god give her back and the thought of attending her funeral is even more of a heartbreak and I don't think I will be able to endure this without having scar by my side.

If I could see her one last time. Feel her on my skin for a last minute. Taste her lips on mine and ask her why she did it because I will probably never understand unless she tells me herself why on earth she had to leave like this.

Out of nothing.

...THE END...

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A/n:

Well honestly this was not easy to write and it probably wasn't easy to read as well...

I know y'all probably want to rip my head off for cutting it this way.

I'll add a second book to this story and we will see what comes around. I hope you enjoyed reading even if it ended this way at first.

Thank you for reading, for comment and fevering along.
The comments are killing me always and I love them.
I honestly never would have thought to deliver any type of content that would be read from anyone.

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Gladly not written for the last time but,

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