Only you

After

Lizzie POV

The sun beamed on my face and it started to tickle my nose. I turned my back towards the sun wanting to sleep more but as I opened my eyes I saw someone right next to me.

„Oh shit." I mumbled under my breath seeing how Nora lays right in front of me and that blank naked.
She was laying on her stomach with her face turned towards me peacefully asleep. The sun made her chestnut brown wavy hair shimmer and the freckles rested on her face perfectly.

With the blanket over us I looked under it as I raised it slightly. We really are naked. What did I do? No what did we do? Fuck. Shit This is not Good. But it was so good not gonna lie.

What do I do? Do I get up and leave? Do I get up and make us some breakfast or do I pretend to be asleep until she wakes up so we can see what we do? Liz stop this overthinking get it together.

Fuck. I have classes to teach today. Oh god. Okay.
I need to leave. As quiet as possible.

I started to move slowly out of her bed and began to look for my clothes. Everything was laying all around her room and it made it harder not to make a sound. I didn't put on my shoes to prevent on making any more sounds.

I collected my clothes and put them on in the hallway. I looked through the door one last time and she was still nocked out fast asleep. Kinda adorable if you ask me.

I took one last look around her beautiful apartment and left shutting the door as quietly as I can. I ran out seeing the traffic which was horrible and I knew that I walked to her last night because I was way to drunk to drive. So this means a taxi for now.

„Taxi!" I yelled out while waving my arm and a car held right away.

I told him where to go and after around half an hour I arrived at the college. Completely out of place and in the same clothes as yesterday.

„Alright class sorry for attending late this morning I had something private that had to be taken care of." they all sat down and got quiet fast.

Class ended quickly and thank god I had my break now because I haven't had a coffee or anything to eat and the headache from the alcohol is killing me.

„You look like shit." I turned my head to the side seeing Scarlett walk right next to me. She had her short hair slicked back from the sunglasses resting on her head with the pipe around her neck. In some tight sports wear. Lucky her she can walk around in comfort clothes like this all day long.

„You didn't have to tell me that. A good morning to you too." I fired back.

„Well according to your appearance you had a great night but probably not a good morning."
She motioned her hand towards me up and down seeing how tousled I am.

„Is it that obvious?" I asked and she laughed lightly at me.

„Liz we went to college together. I know how you looked after a steamy night. Besides it's pretty obvious because you are in the same clothes  from yesterday. Robbie must be giving you a good time."
She explained and I my mind went back to the night I shared with Nora. Fuck. I cheated. I didn't sleep with Robbie. It was Nora. My student. Oh god.

„Mhh I guess so." I answered while minding her look because I know that she knows when I'm lying.

„Hold on Liz." she grabbed me by the arm and stopped us from walking.

„Did you? Do what I think you did?" she asked and I didn't answer.

„it wasn't with Robbie right?" she asked in a slight serious tone. I looked her in the eyes not saying anything and I think I don't need to say anything at all because she knows me well.

„I feel so bad. I'm a horrible partner scar I don't know what drove into me I-." she pulled me into my office and closed the door giving us some privacy.

I let my things fall down onto my desk and paced up and down seeing how scar is leaning against the door.

„I messed up so bad. I don't usually do this but I was drinking after I argued with Robbie once again and I- I don't know what drove into my mind I would never cheat I'm not a bad person. But this makes me a horrible fiancé. Fucking hell what do I do?"

„Okay first off. Let's calm down alright. You are not a bad person and not a bad partner. People make mistakes and we learn out of them okay."
She calmed me down as she stopped me from walking around in my office.

„Come on sit down." she motioned her head towards the couch and we both slumbered down onto the couch. I took in a deep breath trying to calm myself down further.

„Who was it?" she asked after some silence and I can't tell her that. She is my best friend but I can't tell her that I slept with my Student and at the same time the captain in her basketball team.

„I can't tell you that." I breathed out while holding my eyes closed.

„Okay. That's fine. But if I can be honest."
She began and I listened.

„You look like you had the best night and that after a long time." she laughed and I knew that Scarlett would bring in some sarcasm to lighten up the mood.

„I mean I haven't seen you this out of place ever since you had that night with Aubrey at college.
You looked like a hot mess and I think it's a funny sign." she laughed more and I chuckled lightly but yet I hit her arm so she would calm down from her laugh.

„Oh god. I remember. Aubrey was so really messing me up. But in a good way."

„Indeed. Do they make you feel good?" she asked me and I know the answer already.

„I haven't had good sex for a long time. Well at least not that good that I became a hot mess after.
So yeah. I feel good around them and they make me feel good."

„see... just like back in the days. I told you to go for it with Aubrey. But after that you met Robbie and you went after him even though she treated you better compared to him."

„So you are telling me I should leave Robbie for a one night stand?" I asked a bit offended.

„Yes and no. To me it just seems like you should go for it. I don't know who that person is but I can tell that they make you feel incredible. You've been constantly fighting with Robbie and I just wanna see my best friend happy again. You deserve it.
You really do."

„I barely know that person and it's extremely complicated I can't be with them."

„Why? If you really want it nothing and no one will stand in your way." she encouraged me like she used to do back then.

„I see that your brain is braining. All I want you to do is to consider it at least. Follow your cunt instinct." I smacked the back of her head for this comment.

„Really scar? Shouldn't it be something like „follow your heart" or „follow your gut" feeling? Not cunt instinct." I corrected her and she chuckled while rubbing the back of her head.

„It should be a mix of all. Look at me I let my cunt decide and I've been doing great ever since." she laughed and so did I.

„You deserve happiness and good sex." she smiled at me and I nod.

„So do you." I answered and we shared a side hug.