Only you

Ups and downs

TW!!
Idk if this needs a TW but I just added one. Trauma Shows and I thought I should mention.

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Lizzie POV

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„Can I kiss you?" I asked after some silence.

„Please." she replied and I let our lips connect together gently.

My hand rested on her jawline pulling her in gently letting the kiss deepen with every moment passing.
I didn't want to force anything onto her so I let her control the pace of our kiss. I just wanna let her know that I won't rush her for anything she doesn't want. Even if we had sex once before, this time it's different. She is different and I noticed it immediately.

Lord this kiss is making me want her even more.
More than I should and I know it's wrong on so many ways but I just fucking can't resist her.

My other Hand slowly moved down under the blanket pulling her in slowly by her waist cause all I wanna do is feel her body heat which is making me feel so good.

„Tell me if you want me to stop." I mumbled in between our kiss and she stopped briefly making our lips disconnect.

„We've been intimate before." She replied slightly irritated.

„I know. But that doesn't mean that I always have the consent to touch you. I just wanna make sure you feel safe and comfortable." her eyes teared up and I feel like I might have said something wrong.

„Hey. What's wrong?" I asked while whipping her eyes and she leaned her head further into my palm.

„Nothing. You just... you did everything right."
She mumbled and I kissed her starting to taste the saltiness that came from the tears.

„I'll do whatever you say. I won't go on if you don't tell me to do so. This is about you."

„Touch me then. Kiss me and make me forget for the night. Please." she whispered faintly and moved over her letting her lay down under me so I can give her what she wants and deserves.

I was letting my legs rest right next to her waist so that I was able to hover right above her. Both of my hands cupped her face and I looked at her while leaning further waiting for her to nod and she did. She leaned in making our lips connect once again letting them mold together which feels amazing.

Her hands moved around my neck pulling me down by my hair which made me moan slightly.
The kiss deepens and my desire for her grows with every single second passing by.

Her hand moving through my hair while the other was grabbing my neck was all I could ask for and this was the bare minimum. Yet her touch feels like electricity rushing through my veins.
She slightly moved my head down signing me to kiss her body and I didn't waste any time moving down starting at her neck right behind her ear and moving down along the pulse which was rising.

Her hands still moved through my hair massaging my head which feels relaxing and from time to time she pulls on my hair right at those moments where she felt at best.

I pulled my hands down under the blanket reaching for the bottom part of the shirt I gave her to pull it up. I took it off and threw it away making it easier for me to touch and kiss the rest of her body.

Her head was pushed into the pillow making me see her stretched neck which is turning me on even more. This view is everything.

I looked down on her realizing that I stopped from what I saw. She was unhealthily skinny. I started to feel and see her ribs more than I was able to see the last time. Don't even get me started on the nail imprints around her chest and waist.

„Please. Don't look at me like that."
She spoke up as she began to cover her body.
My eyes started to fill with tears. Tears of anger.

„I- I didn't mean to.." I breathed out and she shook her head.

„The pity look. The look you give me won't make me feel better." she added and I swallowed the lump in my throat.

My hands started to move towards hers and I grabbed them stroking over them, signing her to stop covering herself up because she shouldn't be ashamed of what Is marked on her body.
It's not her fault. It never was and it never will be.

I traced my fingers right over these nail imprints and I noticed that they are still slightly red which means they are fresh. There probably not even 24 hours ago.

„I'm sorry." she whispered and I looked shocked at her.

„Don't ever apologize for something that has been done to you. Never. It's not your fault. You aren't the one who is supposed to apologize."
I told her slightly stern and she staid silent.

What else does she have to go through so she will leave this bastard for good? He is being abusive ever since they got back together and I don't even get why. What is it that makes her go back to him?
Who is making her go back to him?
I just wanna know the reason. But I don't wanna push her because I know that this isn't what she needs. She needs comfort and she needs a lot of it.

„Your Safe with me Nora. I promise."
I whispered and she nod while keeping her eyes away from me. I grabbed her by the Chin and moved her head so she would look at me.

„I promise!" I repeated and she nod.

I leaned down once again letting my hands still rest on her lower body touching it gently not wanting to be harsh even though she liked it when we first had sex. She might still like it but it's just to soon considering the situation she was in.

„Thank you for not asking and judging."
She mumbled between the kisses and my heart breaks once again. That she even thinks I would judge her breaks me even more.

„It's okay. I won't rush. I'll be here to talk if you want. I'll be here to hug you and Just hold you if you want. And when your ready to talk I'll be there too." I replied and the kiss started to taste salty again.

„Can we just. Lay together? Please? It's not that I don't want you. I do. More than anything believe me. But I don't feel ready." she cried quietly and I stopped immediately.

„of course." she smiled faintly and I laid down next to her pulling her in so she would be the little spoon.

„Thank you!" she whispered and I kissed her head.

„Do you feel better?" I asked and something in my gut tells me I shouldn't have asked.

She turned her body around and leaned her head onto my chest covering her face in it as she grabbed my shirt tight. Her sobbing got louder with ever breath she took and pulled her in deeper and closer not wanting to let her go.

She needs to get out of this situation and that as soon as possible or she would be in more pain.
She suffered enough already.

A/n:  again fluff but kinda smut but than again fluff.
Ups and downs that won't have and end.

Stay tuned
Until next time
Peace and love
~S