Just a Chance (Aces Band Series #1)

Chapter 32

Ian's POV

She keeps on chasing me and telling me that she wants to be my friend and that thought hurts me a bit. I'm hurt also seeing that she's hurt because of me, but I'm scared if ever we'll be close so I keep on pushing her away even though it's not really my intention.

Can you be my friend? Ahihihi ^_^

Muntik na nga kaming mapagalitan ng teacher namin dahil panay ang kulit niya sa amin habang nagkaklase pa kami, she even sent me a note.

Pinakita ko na hindi ako interesado, na wala akong pakialam. Pero sa loob ko, ang saya ko, matiyaga siya sa akin dahil kahit ilang ulit ko na siyang pinagtulakan palayo hindi niya ako sinusukuan.

Kahit noong uwian na kami, nakatago pa rin sa bulsa ko ang note niya at wala akong planong itapon 'yon.

"Don't worry Tito magiging kaibigan ko din 'yan," she assured Dad "He's just masungit today."

"Hey sungit, magiging kaibigan din kita." sabi niya pa sa akin.

"Can you just shut up," kunot na ang noo ko. "You're so maingay, it's irritating."

I know I'm harsh on her, and I really don't mean it. I know it's still my decision to do it even if I say that I don't mean it, but I'm still not ready to open the doors in my life for her. I'm scared and I don't know if when will I be ready.

She even do everything to make me smile and that warms my heart knowing that she cares for me, that she notice that I'm not in a good mood sometimes.

"See you're handsome when you're smiling," nawala ang ngiti sa mga labi ko at natulala sa kaniya. "Why?"

She even said I'm handsome and I won't deny that I like it. Pero dahil sa sinabi niya mas natakot ako, natakot na baka masanay ako sa presensya niya kaya pilit ko pa ring itinutulak siya palayo o 'di kaya ay ako ang lumalayo.

I have no friends when we were kindergarten, my classmates are scared of me. No one dare to talk and play with me. But knowing that Ela's presence is here with me even if I told her that she's not my friend is already enough, I don't feel lonely.

"Kamusta ang paghahanap kay Adriena?" tanong ni Tito Zach.

When they decided to have a dinner at our house then I've heard Ina's name on their conversation I automatically went to my room.

Napaupo ako sa kama ko at natulala na naman. I'm wondering if how's Ina right now. I felt something stabbing my heart again. I miss my Ina. I miss my best friend, my twin sister.

I started crying again. The trauma is still on me. I'm still blaming myself for everything and I'm afraid to make decisions again for my life. I always think that others will hurt me in the end or I will be the one hurting them.

May mumatok sa pintuan ng kwarto ko pero hindi ko ito pinansin hanggang sa pumasok na lang ito, at si Ela nga 'yon.

"Hey Ian."

Here she go again, even if I don't want to, I just need to do this for my sake and hers. I pushed her away again and I know it hurted her.

"Go away Elaiza."

"Are you okay?" It touched my heart knowing that she cares for me.

"Just go away, I don't need you here." I still act like I'm irritated and I don't want her which is not true.

"But I want to be here for you," she sat beside me. "What's your problem ba?"

"It's none of your business." I looked at her with my brows furrowed.