Forbidden from the start

chapter 35

My eyes are stuck on the almond tree that's outside our class , reminding me the tree I have in my yard back in my home .

My hand bends on the side , keeping my head from falling on the table while my other hand is occupied with my red pen , that's twisting in my fingers.

I miss home , I miss Mike and I miss my parents. I wonder what their up to these days .

" Excuse me miss Miles " the voice of mrs Paterson brinks me out of my daydream " is there something you want to share with the rest of us ? You seem pretty concerned " she says ironically

What are we in high school?

My eyes fall on the rest of the class , who's looking at me and I immediately feel my cheeks going red.

I straighten my back and fix my hair awkwardly, clearing my throat .

" Um no , I'm fine " I try to out on a smile to ease this shameful moment

" Well as I was saying to the whole class ," she keeps pacing around the class referring to all of us " you should all be aware of the importance of this subject because it has a lot to give to you .." she goes on talking and I go on focusing on my previous thoughts

The last class of the day ends and I head to the dorms to catch up with Martha .

As I walk to my dorm and snuffle through my bag to find my Keys , I see my phone light up since I had it on silent due to Mrs Paterson strict rule of no cellphones in class.

When I pick it up I see two messages from Aaron and two calls from Martha. I decide to answer to Aaron's message first .

A- Are we gonna catch up ? Or you don't like me anymore
A- Answer the text .

I read that when I unlock the door and finally getting some peace for the day , in my empty dorm .

O- I was in class . What's with the passive aggressiveness? Lol

I leave my phone on the coffee table and throw my self on the couch, leaving a big sigh of relief.

I ding makes my head snap up and grab my phone .

A- You let him sleep in your room . What I'm suppose to do ? Be happy about it ?

I arch an eyebrow cause of his nerve and decide to give back the same energy.

O- who ? Jacob? He is not even my friend . Plus I think you've bit overstepped the line, i can let whoever I want sleep in my couch, or my bed .

Right when I was about to close the phone I see him writing.

A- Are you going with him after the game ? Again .

" Oh fuck I forgot about Saturday " I mumble to myself

I decide to not answer him till I know for sure .I don't even know if I'm going, or with who I'm going after the game . I don't like how Aaron thinks he can
lecture me for something like this in my life . I knew that kissing him would cause this problems , but I didn't expect speaking to Jacob like that about me the other day . He indeed sound like a jealous boyfriend, but he isn't , my boyfriend.

I don't even want to remember how Jacob reacted. He was nearly disgusted and offended that someone imagined us together.

My dream when I was little was to be with who I loved since twelve , but who I wanted was not the point. The point is that if my twelve old self saw his face of disgust when he was talking about me and him being intimate, she would absolutely reach her braking point.