Forbidden from the start

chapter 43

What do I tell myself when I know that I've screwed up ? Yeah you did Olivia , you did messed up everything.

Disgusted , offended and annoyed he seemed . He may seem that way but I knew that I had a small effect on him , at least.

Maybe he was surprised or impressed., Maybe he was both . But I'm pretty sure that mad was the main emotion that could describe him . He takes the fact that I'm his best friends sister way too serious , and that's why he talked to me about limits . I'm always young enough for him to tease ,but not enough to take me seriously .

I certainly didn't need to act this way , but i wanted . I couldn't help myself from asking him why , why he did all he did . And I wanted to ask him more questions that he hasn't answered yet.

It was an easy thing for me to do , and a hard thing for him to accept. It came out of me naturally to him , maybe because I knew him . I know what he likes in women ; strong, beautiful, courageous and bossy enough to entertain his boredom . I had to shift my character and personality . Perhaps I'm not mad at him this time , but at me . Because i would be lying if I said that I didn't enjoy seeing him melt under my touch.

" Goodmorning " I hear a voice and I immediately snap my diary closed on my desk

I unplug one of my two earphones and turn around seeing Aaron , who's sitting beside me already , with his books on his hands .

" Hi " I smile at him little confused of why he is here so early because the class wasn't about to start for another ten minutes or so

" What , you're shocked to see me ?" He snickers placing his books on the table

" Actually, yeah " I admit " You're usually late " i state still smiling

" I didn't have practice today " he explains " How are you by the way ?"

" Um fine just ," I sigh " I'm sorry I've ghosted you these days " I say throwing him an apologetic look

" No , I get it " he shakes it off " you're busy , have your friends" he shrugs looking at his hands

" I'm happy that you won though " I say exited

He turns to me and smiles .

" Yep " he nods his head " finally "

" Martha wanted to go somewhere else " I say " that's why I didn't come with you the other day after the game " i state

" Oh " he makes an understanding look " and I thought that you were with Jacob and that's why you didn't answered me "

Yeah , about that ..

" I saw your massage later ," I try to fix it " but I want to make it up to you if you want "

I really feel guilty about it , he seems like a good friend to me and I shouldn't act like that . I neglected him a lot and he reach out to me many times . I don't blame him for getting mad at me for ignoring him , because I did .

" Yeah I figured-" suddenly his smile fades as he looks at something else in the room , I dart my eyes to that direction seeing Jacob getting inside the classroom " the fuck is he here for ?" Aaron asks while his eyes scrunch up in annoyance

After Jacob, a girl passes into the class while walking faster , reaching him over his seat . She seems kinda familiar , but I don't know from where I know her , and since she is kinda far it's hard to distinguish.

" Great " I mumble to myself sarcastically and turn my head back to Aaron

" Since when is he interested in History?" He asks while having his eyes still on him

" I thought he wasn't interested in anything " i state while twisting my pen in my fingers , trying to distract myself from the fact that I have to share a class with Jacob

" He is ," Aaron says " but what he doesn't get is that not anything is interested in him " he states and I throw him a look of confusion

" Huh?" I huff

He darts his eyes from him to me , and he relaxes .

" Um nothing " he shakes his head , opening up his book

" What's going on between him and you " I finally ask

He stares beside him on the table , before looking back at me .

" Let's say we had a bad past " he says

" Meaning?" I ask wanting him to be more specific

" Look ," he gets closer to me and glances here and there to see if people hear , before leaning closer for me to hear " i just know he is a bad person , ok? You need to trust me " he says prominently

Jacob's an ass , egotistic and rude , but he is not a bad person at all . Grumpy yes , and sometimes he does stuff that hurt you , but I wouldn't describe his as a bad person.

After he saw that I wasn't convinced he rolls his eyes at me .

" He stole my girlfriend, " he says throwing me off guard " while we were friends " he adds like the first sentence wasn't enough to make me startled

" What ?!" I whisper shout " Why , How ?"

" It's a long story which I don't want to discuss right now" he says " But besides that's he's in deep shit " he continues " like actually ,the definition of trouble "

" What do you mean " In deep shit ?" , like illegal stuff?" I ask feeling a bit confused

" I don't know for sure , that's why I want you to stay away from him " he states

That's insane. Jacob would never do that , he would never get in that much trouble. I know he is short tempered and I know that he has been in many fights , but I don't believe that he has actual enemies who want to do harm to him . But when I think about it he said that there are sides . I didn't know exactly what that meant but it makes sense if Aaron's telling the truth.

" I can't, he is like my family " i explain " we grew up together and our families too "

" That doesn't mean anything " he says " he is still dangerous "

I almost laugh at that word .

" You're saying to me that you trust him to not hurt you " he asks testing me

I turn my gaze to Jacob seeing that he is focused on the teacher that's already talking and writing on the board .

His body manspreading on the chair and a pen twisting on his fingers , just like mine .

Before I could shift my eyes elsewhere, his go to mine and I stiffen from the cold tension. He stops his movement and I swallow.

" Not a fucking bit " i reply feeling sure of my answer

Not a fucking bit .