Forbidden from the start

chapter 65

(TW)

When your mind gets foggy with all those different emotions that contain; fear, disappointment, disgust, happiness, sadness, anger , you tent to make rational decisions that you normally wouldn't make.

I was studying in a coffee shop, covered by the unusual rain and fog that gathered the town. I was alone and deep into my thoughts. So, I did what I always do to make me feel better;

I found a distraction.

"I knew you would be back" Aaron sings in relief, a huge smile on his face as he closes the door shut

"Don't flatter yourself, I'm not back"

It's true, I don't feel the same with him anymore. But I want to believe that I can make myself feel again. I need to get over whatever happened last week, even if it means that I drop my ego for once.

"You forgave me yet? Or I have to fall to my knees for you?" He forms a smirk as he scoots closer, closing the already small gap between us

"That sounds tempting, but no" I twirl the end of my skirt, a bit nervous to be with him alone for the first time after what happened

His hand goes around me on the head seat, and I almost roll my eyes at his confidence.

"You changed your shampoo?" He watches me, and I don't dare to look him in the eyes because in such small distance that we have this could be an instant invitation for a make out

"Nope"

"Hair color?"

"No"

"So what's different?" I can feel his eyes scan me but my look is on the drivers seat ahead

We are in his friends car in the parking lot of the dorms. You don't consider this a make up date, do you?

"You didn't speak to me for three weeks, something could probably be different"

"I don't buy bullshit anymore, maybe that's it" I comment

"You're a clever girl that's for sure"

I don't answer. What could I say to that? Thank you?

"Look at me" his words make my stomach tighten, but I do what I'm told because I know that I can't run away from it

His eyes sparkle with lust, and I see Jacob's deep blue instead of his. I blink.

"I missed this" his hand cups my jaw and he gives me a kiss without hesitation

I don't even close my eyes, my mind racing with the thought of if that's the right thing to do.

"Tell me you missed it too" his look is serious

"Your asking me to lie" I can't talk sweet to him, that's not me

His eyebrows fall.

"Look," his one hand grabs my shoulder from behind and the other one my side neck "I know that Jacob walks around you, claiming to be his territory and stuff-"

"What's Jacob have to do with this?"

"I'm not gonna let him take you"

"I'm a game to you?"

His eyebrows furrow.

"No" he shakes his head "but you're for him"

I can't even process it hat he said when he digs in and kisses me, this time more forcefully.

I let that happen. Maybe one of my biggest regrets.

The first thought on my mind is that I'm a prize between those to. I want to not believe that Jacob sees me as a metal for his masculinity but as a girl he may..