Forbidden from the start

chapter 34

Walking up from my alarm that I forgot to turn off yesterday, I toss and turn in my bed till I decide that there's no more sleep for me .

I turn my door handle and walk past my small kitchen to pour myself some water . As I turn myself around, with the glass full of water still in my hands , I gasp at the scene infront of me ;

Jacob's laying on my couch, sleeping .

I forgot he was here .

I place my cup - that I almost dropped on the ground- , on the counter slowly to make no sound and move closer to our small living area .

His whole body is turned upside down and his head is placed on the pillow facing the small coffee table , while his one hand dangles from the couch , touching the floor . His eyes are closed and his mouth is slightly open . I watch as his body rises up and down when he breaths shallow . His back is covered with my small pink blanket that I gave to him yesterday. I glance at his toned arms , his tattoos peaking from his sleeves .

He looks so peaceful. Like a baby .

Sometimes I see the good in him . He wasn't always this grumpy and harsh to me . When I think about him being younger he was a sweet boy . He was playful , teasing but also protective and caring . Yesterday was the time that I saw his old self .

The way he grabbed me and made sure I was okey , made me feel hope and helped me get over my panic attack. I would actually give him the whole credit of making me feel better if it wasn't his fault for feeling awful to begin with .

A sudden bank on the door makes me snap my eyes on it and then back to Jacob seeing that's he is still asleep. I thank god for it because if he opened his eyes right now he would see me being above him like a creep.

I tip toe on my foot and basically run so see who it is .

I open the door quickly but when I remember that I probably should ask when I open the door, but it's too late because I already did it .

Relief fills me when I see Aaron standing in my doorstep with his usual training back on his hand .

" Hi " he says with a smile

" Hi -" I snap my eyes back inside remembering that I have Jacob inside sleeping

I close more my door and throw him an awkward smile .

" Is everything all right?" He asks tilting an eyebrow

" Yep I just don't wanna wake up Martha , you know " I whisper to him

" Oh ok ," he says nodding " can I come in ? I won't make noise and I want to talk to you-"

" No!" I say widening my eyes " I mean no I will come outside " I say going outside the hallway and closing my door but not entirely so I don't stuck outside

" what do you want to tell me " I cross my hands on my breasts ,feeling my whole body shiver from the morning cold

" I wanted to tell you that there's going to be a match on Saturday and that I want you to be there if you can " he says " a friendly one of course "

" Again ? I mean yeah I probably will be there " I answer

I don't know why I said yes , I may not even be able to go out for some days .

" Okey " he nods his head " oh and by the way where were you last night? I thought you-"

" Olivia it's seven in the fucking morning " our head snaps to the open door beside us eyeing the half awake Jacob

I close my eyes to myself because of how unlucky I am and then turn to Aaron who is already looking at me . Angrily.

" Did he sleep here ? " he asks and I suddenly feel like I've betrayed someone