Forbidden from the start

chapter 49

The car is silent. The engine is running and the sound that it makes , makes this place more bearable. I sit next to him , like I always do , my look stuck outside thinking about what happened and how I'm feeling after all this .

Disgusted and mad .

That's how I feel , how I felt . He didn't hesitate to grab me by the hair , choke me and nearly cut me with his knife . Nico assaulted me . And the way his smile brighten up by my worry makes me wanna burst into tears and never leave my room for days . I felt alone and doomed , like I was gonna give him what he wanted and if I didn't, he would take it regardless of what I said.

I couldn't control my tears . They just left my eyes before I knew it . And Jacob was there , he just happened to be there when I cried and needed a shoulder to cry to , and I felt that it was unexpected for him too .

He seemed angry with all this situation, something I can't abide . The way he tried to control his anger and hide his true colors was impressively new to me . I feared that he would actually brake his head with his bat , and I would lie if I said that I didn't like that idea .

It's a bad thing that I search for protection and secure from him . He has his own life and I shouldn't been calling him to pick me up from where I want because I screwed up and I trusted the wrong guy . Regardless of what he says , that he has to watch out for me , he doesn't want to and I'm sure that he has better thing to do than worrying about me .

I felt the way he pulled away from our hug . He was overwhelmed and felt like he needed to hug me back , and maybe he did good ,because I needed surely needed that more than anything.

The car stops and I climb out of it .

" Goodnight " I mumble while going near the door

" Wait " he says and I hear the car lock up and him getting closer to me " i will escort you to your dorm " he taunts , more like commands

I nod , my back facing him as I push the door open , going straight for my room .

He walks behind me , his shoes echoing on the wooden old flooring and I feel his eyes stuck on me , on my back .

" I'm fine " i state " stop looking at me like that "

" Your back is on me , how do you know that I'm looking at you " he asks

" I can feel you " i explain " you make me nervous, like I'm hiding something and you want answers "

" Maybe I do " he says and I stop infront of my closed door

" Thank you " i say turning to him , my keys already juggling in my hands

" For what " he asks

" For taking me home , making sure that I'm fine ,"

" Yeah I may was a little late for that " he says cutting me off

" I'll get over it " i shrug

" You shouldn't have to get over nothing , Olivia " he taunts " You shouldn't have to go through such thing , nobody deserves that " he shakes his head , squeezing his eyes to me

My heart warms at his empathy, remembering that he was actually willing to give anything to him in order for Nico to let me go without a scratch.

" Anything but her " he said , and it stuck with me till this moment

The way he acts confuses me . He hates me and it shows , but how can I persuade myself that none of his past self is in there , when I see the way he defends me . Maybe I should wake up from my dream and remember one thing and only ;