Forbidden from the start

chapter 52

Jacob's POV

God, I love weed.

One of the few bad habits that I have is smoking weed, and I fucking rock with that a lot . Because who are you to even judge me ? Fuck you.

" Are you good?" Kyle asks me , him sitting next to me while the others pass the blunt extremely slow for my pleasing " you seem pretty..pissed off" he hesitated

I frown looking down of my feet.

Off course I'm mad , how can I not be? I surely knew what I did when I let her stay over, I wasn't drunk- I never I'm - I wasn't high,so what's the excuse now?

" If Michael knew.." I start

" But he doesn't " he assured

" I know it , and it's enough " I admit

I dart my head elsewhere, my eye's scanning the whole area of the cars . Luke rolls another smoke in front of me, licking the paper till it's gets wet.

Everything feels frozen it time and I can hear the night birds chipping from by far.My head feels heavy and my stomach tightens every time I remember Olivia .

Her beautiful voice , her beautiful silvery voice that always makes me feel amazed, even when angry. She smiles almost every time she talks , but mostly when she's talking about the things she loves. I just wish it was me who she was talking with . I remember one time I went to her class on purpose, just to see how she looked like when focused. The way she was smiling when talking with Aaron made me feel something worse that anger towards him. Sadness, sadness is the feeling I guess. But how can someone make me feel sad and happy at the same time ?

When she calls my name, that's when I find myself watch her. Not look at her . Watch her . The way she calls me ; "Jacob " , oh and what I wouldn't give to listen to her for hours calling my name..

" Jacob "

Yes . Like that. That's the perfect sound.

" Jacob "

" incredible " i murmur looking ahead , my hand balancing my head to prevent it from falling down

I'm so relaxed.

All of the sudden, my hand gets pushed over and I yelp , turning around to face Kyle .

" The fuck?" I snap at him

But when I turn my head, I focus on the two figures ahead of me. I squeeze my eyes a little and I understand that the one that's on the right , is Olivia .

" Jacob " she calls and I immediately understand that's the voices from before weren't just in my vivid imagination

" Y-yeah?" I blink trying to stay focused and to seem sober

" Can you move a little? " she points right between me and Kyle

I glance where she's pointing and huff feeling annoyed by her all of the sudden.

Seriously, what is she doing here ? We're literally smoking pot in the middle of a parking lot in one in the morning. How the hell did she even get here?

She looks at me and roll her eyes , passing me and sitting between me and Luke.

" What- the hell are they doing here " i whisper to Kyle

" They were around here , what I'm I supposed to say no to my girlfriend because you want to avoid Olivia forever?" He questions silently

I breath out , rubbing my eyes with the back of my knuckle.