Building Our Broken Hearts (Course Series #3)

Kabanata 32

"W-Wyn, kakain na."

I wake him up and tapped his shoulder. Nakadapa itong natulog at walang damit pang taas. Alas 9 na ng umaga ngunit tulog pa siya. Usually kasi alas 7 or alas 8 gising na siya.

I don't know what time did he sleep last night. I didn't sleep beside him and decide to sleep at the living room. And about what he said to Tita Belle last night, we didn't talk to each other.

I don't have enough sleep because of what happened. I was thinking about it the whole night. I cried it all out silently last night. But still, I manage to woke up early to prepare food for us.

When I woke up earlier, hindi na katulad noon. Nong nagising ako kanina sobrang bigat ng nararamdaman ko lalo na yung puso ko. Wala akong lakas sa totoo lang, hindi nakayanan ng isip at puso ko dahil sa nalaman.

"W-Wyn." Ginising ko ulit siya. I can't stand calling him love in this situation. Hindi ko alam kung kami pa ba or hindi na.

"Hmmmm." He hummed and move.

Napaatras ako nong tinignan ako nito. Saglit lang iyon bago siya bumangon. Hindi ako nito tinignan at deritsong lumabas. I bitted my lips because I felt that I am about to cry again. Sinundan ko siya pababa sa kusina.

Agad itong umupo sa pwesto niya at kumuha agad ng pagkain na hindi man lang ako tinitignan. Umupo ako sa harapan niya at tinignan lang ang bawat galaw niya. Napaayos ako ng upo nang tinignan ako nito.

"Eat." Utos niya at nagsimulang kumain.

"W-Wyn, I'm sorry. I didn't know." My voice was about to crack but I still manage it. He didn't respond and continued eating.

"Kung hindi mo kaya na makasama ako, maghiwalay nala-" Pinutol niya ang sinabi ko sa pamamagitan ng pagbagsak ng mga kubyertos na hawak nito. He look at me while his brows furrowed.

"I'm still thinking about it Max. Breaking our relationship isn't the solution." He said.

"Then what's the solution Wyn? Continue our relationship with this situation? Kakayanin mo bang makisama sa anak ng kabit ng da-" He stood up.

"Let's not talk about this shit." He said and was about to leave the kitchen. Padabog akong tumayo at nagsalita.

"We should Wyn! This isn't right anymore. You shouln't be with me. Let's brea-"

"I said break up isn't the fucking solution Max! I can be with you even though it hurts me! Just... just give me time to think more." He shouted and faced me. A tear drops from my eyes. Tumanggo-tanggo ako.

"Yan...yan ang hinihintay ko mula sayo. You're hurt because of the fact that I am the daughter of the woman who destroyed your family. Kung ikaw kaya mo, ako hindi. Hindi ko kayang kasama ka knowing that you are hurt because of me, because of mommy." I said crying. His jaw clenched sign that he's stopping his self to cry.