Eunomia

Chapter 51 "Just a blood sucker"

~Bryony~

My head was about to explode. It was Wednesday and Noa had the doctor appointment, as if more than half an hour of road trip with my older brother, my little sister and the boy who got her pregnant wasn't awkward enough, Noa had the brilliant idea to share with us that she wanted to stay with the baby. We almost have an accident because of the so tactless way that Noa announced it. Noa was lucky that in the consulting room they only let her and the father of the baby enter but I wasn't so lucky... One hour an a half hearing Cameron's complains. Not because he thought Noa shouldn't stay with her child but because she didn't think about talking it out first, with us, with dad or with Eros family before making a final decision.

The way back was even more horrible, because there was no longer a 'supposed baby' or a 'supposed father'. There was a baby on the way and a fourteen year old father. Our father could arrive home at any time and Noa and Cameron kept arguing, I was sat on the sofa cursing the day I decided to keep this version of me alive until she turned eighteen.

"Again Noa. My problem is not that you want to stay with your child but that you didn't plan on telling us! There are many people who are concerned about this pregnancy and you didn't even think about mentioning it to them." Cameron was desperate, about to lose his voice for screaming that much.

"I told Bryony!" Noa screamed as desperate as Cameron.

Do you know when everybody in the room turn to you as if you had just murder someone? Well, that was exactly what was happening. Cameron was looking at me as if I was a traitor for don't telling him and I looked at Noa with wide eyes in surprise.

How dare she to expose me like this? Vampires aren't snitch.

"You knew?!" Cameron pointed at me with the finger. I didn't like that.

Dammit. I didn't know how to react, I was so tired of this... Of faking to be someone I wasn't, I wanted everything to end already, I didn't know how much longer could I keep faking... Soon it will be a year and I needed the time to stop, or speed it up. Nobody seemed to understand my exhaustion but I was just too tired for getting into a fight.

"I..." I got up from the sofa knowing that I would have to do a good performance if I wanted to go and suffer upstairs. "I'm tired of this... Solve this problem by yourself but don't bother me." I split in a sigh then I started walking towards the stairs.

It didn't surprised me that Cameron grabbed my arm preventing me from leaving.

Here goes nothing. I took a deep breath before turning around taking Cameron's hand off me.

"You are so fucking selfish! Do you even stop to think about what time of the year is coming?! Do you even stop to think about me?!" I exploded leaving my voice in every single word that came out from my mouth. Tears were starting to cloud my vision but I just thought that would make everything more realistic. "In 23 days will be a year since I lost the person I loved most and you expect me to be arguing with you for something I also lost a year ago?! You can't ask me to support anyone right now because I can't barely support myself..." I closed my eyes letting some tears soak my cheeks. "I have lost much more than you both together and I'm just asking for a little of empathy. Do not talk to me about babies when it's about to be a year since I lost all chances of ever having one."

I tried to find my heartbeat for calming down. Not my own heartbeat, I didn't have of that, the illusion of it that I made. Because right now, a fake heartbeat was better than none, I didn't care if it was an illusion.

I opened my eyes again, my siblings were motionless, silence took over the house and that was because they knew I was right. I could see in Noa's eyes that she wanted to say something, to apologize maybe, but she didn't. Nobody said anything more what proved me that I had made a good performance.