Let's Meet Again, For the First Time (Eren x OC)

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A/n: In this book Levi and Mikasa are going to be brother and sister- keep that in mind

Just because he was an asshole didn't mean it didn't hurt like hell. The thought of him crying hurt, or the sight of him laying in a bed of emptiness like me. His smile lingered in my mind, that look in his eye when I told him to get out.

I laid in my dark room, I didn't cry, or sob. I just laid there, complete silence.

Memories of us flashed through my mind, haunting me like an old ghost. Only the good ones lingered. The bad ones just became a distant thought I couldn't recognize as clearly. I wasn't sad or upset, I just hurt.

I told myself I was alright, but it didn't feel like that deep down. He was my best friend for the past 3 years of my life, my person. Sure it was toxic but we had our good times. I didn't forget the smiles and laughs he brought me, all the adventures we took together.

When you're with someone for that long, when you see them almost everyday, and miss them when they aren't around. To have that taken from you so suddenly, it's hard.

It feels like he piece of you is missing. And it scares you because you think you'll never be able to find that missing piece again.

The idea of a new love seemed like a fantasy. Something far beyond my reach. The idea of starting over scared me. Starting over with someone knew, having to fall in love again scared me.

I didn't want to get hurt again.

I knew he wasn't the one, my epic love story. I didn't know who that man was. If he was a stranger, or someone I had known for my entire life, or both. Part of me was excited to meet him, but the other dreaded it.

I think the reason it scared me because what if he was my soulmate, but I wasn't his? Theres people in this world who we are meant to love, but they aren't always meant to love us. And I think that's the biggest tragedy one can face. There is nothing in this world that hurts more than meeting the right person at the wrong time.

That heartbreak is by far the most painful. And for that to be a possibility...I don't know if I wanted to meet him.

"Spence get up", Bec rushed in my room and opened my curtains, I hid from the sun.

"Depression session is now over- I gave you a week so snap out of it", she snapped, "Go away", I groaned into my pillow.

"I'm giving you one last change to get up", I glanced at her, she had a menacing look on her face, "Bec wait-", "That's it!!", she grabbed my ankles and dragged me off the bed, I fell to the ground, "Fuck", I rubbed my back.

"I let you be sad for a week it's time to get over it", she crossed her arms, "I was with him for 3 years can I at least get a month?", I got up slowly.

She laughed, "A month? For that asshole?! You're lucky I gave you a week", I stared at her flatly.

"Bec come on", she laughed again, "Come on? No- get your ass packed- we're going on a trip", she began to walk away. "Wait what- when?!", I furrowed my brows, "Now- now pack your shit!", she slammed my door shut. I sighed and went after her.

"What about work??", I raised my brows, "It's taken care of, Armin and Eren are covering us both", my eyes narrowed slightly. "How d-", "Go pack!!", she yelled, "Pack what!?!", "You wear the same thing everyday!! What's the difference!!?". I walked off and slammed my door.

I was annoyed at her but I couldn't stop the grin on my lips. She had planned this, for us, for me. Even if she was bitchy about it, she cares. And that's why I loved her so much.

I threw a bunch of random clothes into a bag and zipped it up.

"So where are we going?", I asked her as we made our way out, "Not a clue", she sighed. "You mean we don't have a hotel or anything?!", I started to panic, "We'll find one", she shrugged her shoulders. "You're driving", I threw the keys at her and she caught them, "Fine".