Let's Meet Again, For the First Time (Eren x OC)

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Eren's POV:

Showing up everyday to the hospital to take care of her dad was almost fun in a way.

I never had a father, he was there but just...absent. So having these long conversations about life and what to do when you don't have anything left fascinated me.

I never had these kinds of talks with my dad, it was always small talk, or a lecture on how I'm not enough. It was bullshit.

But when I was talking with her dad, it was like I finally had what I always wanted. A father to give me all the answers. To tell me that there's great pain with life, but also the most blissful beauty.

So it was nice, talking to him. Listening to his stories about getting arrested, drunk fights, teenage terror at it's finest. It made me feel...recognized.

As if it were okay to mess up, it was okay to make mistakes, to fight and cry. That I was allowed to feel, I was allowed to have emotions and act on them. Because the the only way we really learn anything is through pain.

We mess up, we live in the mistake we created, figuring out how to solve it, and when we do, it changes us for the better. It makes us stronger and it makes us wiser.

Wisdom is only learned through chaos. To find nirvana you must suffer through the torture. As cheesy and over said as it sounds, it's true. The cheesy lines are cheesy because they're true. It's as simple as that.

Not everything needs to be thought about too long.

And that's what he taught me, he taught me all the things I never understood. The things I was desperate to find and found in his voice. I may be rambling but, it was nice listening to him.

Things between Spencer and I have been better than amazing, strangely enough. When I was with her, all the bad shit went away, even the lying part. It was like when I stepped through the door to her apartment I was entering another universe. Leaving my thoughts in the last one.

I think my mind tricked it's own self into believing I was doing the right thing, that this would save her. That if I lied long enough it would protect her heart from the pain reaching towards it, I'd be saving her. So I didn't feel as guilty, since my brain kept tricking itself.

I savored every second with her, because I never knew if it would be the last. And from what I learned from her father is that those small moments we don't think twice about, are the memories we'll be chasing for the rest of our lives.

"So what happened after?", I knitted my brows, leaning closer as my interest peaked, "After I caught her cheating?", he coughed. "Yeah", I rested my chin on my folded arms just beside his hospital bed.

"Well I kicked the guys ass", he laughed, "Man I just saw red, I probably would've killed the guy if I hadn't heard the girls crying", he shook his head as memories flashed through his mind.

"I kicked him to the curb, then her", he said, as if he were disappointed with himself. "She cried to me, I remember-...the tears in her eyes looked like crystals, the only thing that captivated you was the beauty of it, you see", he cleared his throat, "A crystal and a diamond look very similar".

My eyes wide to hear his next words I was already invested in, "But a crystal will always just be...a. crystal", he shrugged his shoulders, "What do you mean- 'just a crystal?'", he sighed.

"They look similar, crystals and diamonds, it's easy to confuse the both of them, but they are entirely different", he began, "You see, a crystal just looks beautiful, sometimes even more so than a diamond, but it's just a crystal, it isn't worth as much and it won't shine as brightly as a diamond does. Diamonds occur naturally, crystals occur through crystallization, which is the process of cooling down a liquid".