Let's Meet Again, For the First Time (Eren x OC)

5

I set my keys down on the table beside the door, Becca left her room and looked at me, sadness hidden in her eyes.

"Wanna talk about it?", she asked softly, I nodded and followed her to her room.

I laid in her bed, my head resting on her lap.

"You know he's never going to change, right?", she broke the silence between us, "I know". "I just...love him so much and- I don't want to lose him", my one low and saddened. "It's not right for you to feel like this Spence", her hand combed through my short hair.

"I don't want to hurt him", my voice cracked slightly, "I know...but you need to put yourself first". "This is draining you and I've known it for a while but it's showing now, you look more tired, that hurt in your eyes never leaves", I shut my eyes, knowing she was right.

"I just wanna disappear from all this", I looked up to her, "Sister trip?", she raised one brow, "I'd love to but-", "But Jean, yeah I know", her tone tired. "I hope you realize that isn't normal", she sighed, I took a deep breath.

"I just want what's best for you Spence, that's all", she smiled, "I know it's just...hard sometimes", "It shouldn't be".

I knew she was right. I knew he'd never change no matter how many times he told me he would. I knew he'd never let me be the girl I wanted. I knew he wouldn't stop judging me. I just didn't want to admit it. Cause when I did, it was real.

"He's emotionally abusing you Spence", her words cut into me deeply. "The things he says to you, the manipulation and the narcissism, it's...not healthy", "What if he-", "No", she paused till she said her next words.

"The devil doesn't bargain", she said, I bit my lip, hating the true words that left her mouth. "Just promise me...you'll try and put yourself first", I looked up to her, "I'll try", I lied.

"You working with Eren tonight?", she changed the subject, "No, I'm off today", I sighed lightly.

"Such a shame...", her voice hinting at something.

"Bec- he has a girlfriend and she's fuckin gorgeous- so can you please stop with this", I sat up. "How gorgeous?", she raised one brow, "Supermodel gorgeous".

"Well he doesn't talk about her—why?", her tone sly, "Maybe he doesn't like to talk about his relationship with random people". "Hmm", she looked to the side. "What?", I stared at her flatly.

"You know when you left last night, he wasn't the same", I furrowed my brows, needing to know more.

"What do you mean?", I studied her words, "His supermodel girlfriend came- Mikasa- so sweet by the way", she rambled, "Anyways- he was in this mood ever since you left- I don't know if it was guilt or what but...everyone could tell there was something off about him, even Armin said something", "He was?", my face relaxed.

"Yeah, all short with everyone", my eyes trailed away from hers, a faint smile across my lips. "You like him", she said, "Stop", I shot her down. "Not doing this", I left her bed, "You totally like him!", she kept going, "Bec! Stop!", I said through laughs, "Someone's in loveee", she rolled her shoulders.

I leaned back on her closed door. Trying to bring myself back to reality.

You love Jean. You're with Jean.

I needed to get this out. Only way to do that was to write.

I grabbed my laptop and keys and ran down the building.

"Spencer!", Sasha smiled as I entered the coffee shop, "Usual?", I nodded, "Thank you!". I sat down at the same table and opened my laptop.

My keys were still sticky from the coffee that had spilled atop it, but it still worked, good enough for me.