Let's Meet Again, For the First Time (Eren x OC)

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(song rec: Hurt- Johnny Cash)

I shook my head slowly as I backed up. "Spencer", Eren breathed, his face draining with more blood by the second.

"Spence!", my dad wearily called out, my pace quickened as I rushed out of the hospital, hoping that if I was anywhere else this wouldn't be my reality.

My breathing became heavier and heavier as I walked. It felt like I was draining all the air left inside this building. And once I used it all up I'd finally collapse. My eyes were full of tears, ready to fall at any given moment.

My entire body felt like it was on fire but drowning at the same time.

I didn't know what to think, or how to feel. All I felt was chaos. Raw unsettling raging chaos.

The room began to spin around me, making it harder to find a way to salvation. I kept my head down, focusing on the cold white stained tile. Hoping that if I looked at the spot I was about to step in, the ground wouldn't give below me.

I heard Eren's distant shouting of my name as he chased after me but all the noise felt distant. All the voices, the laughs, the cries and the sounds of hospital machines beeping irregularly. It was all so close yet it felt like yesterday.

When I finally made it outside, I exhaled deeply. As if I had been storing all that air inside my lungs only to return it to it's home. My eyes stared at the night sky, trying to collect any thought I could find.

"Spencer!!.....", I heard Eren's voice just behind me.

The tears in my eyes could no longer be held back. They were now falling down my face like the middle of a storm. Stopping for no one, and certainly not waiting.

I turned slowly, preparing myself to look into his false emerald eyes, that poured such pretty lies into my dark ones. Tainting them with their false beauty and sense of bliss. Like a serpent, waiting for the right moment to snatch it's prey.

"How long?", I asked, my voice struggling to stay strong with my own thoughts. His eyes turned sad, almost as if they were capable of emotion. "How long Eren?", tears streaming down my eyes like a new river.

He swallowed the lump in his throat, as if the next few words would slit his throat, "3 months", I left out a sharp gasp and looked to the side.

All the air felt thinner, as if it was being spared to me. And it was enough.

"3 months?!?!", my eyes met his again, agony and pain in the dark forest eyes I believed in for so long.

"What if he had died?", I stepped loser to him, "What then?", his eyes glistened with tears.

"I did it for you!!", he yelled, hoping it would make the pain relive. "For me?!?!", I stepped back. "He didn't let me-", "NO!!! NO!!", I shoved him, "You do not get to bring him into this!!".

"This is about you!!! You lying to me!!!", I cried out, nothing but pain in my screams. "It's not about him- or what he told you!! YOU LIED!!! YOU FUCKING LIED TO ME!!!", I pushed him again.

"YOU LOOKED INTO MY EYES EVERYDAY AND TOLD ME NOTHING BUT FUCKING LIES!!! YOU LIED- YOU....lied", my last punch on his chest was weak. "You promised- you....promised me nothing was wrong- that...that everything was fine".

"You-....looked into my eyes- the same way you always did-...and you were lying", I stepped back slowly. "Spencer I did this for you!!!", he shouted, "FUCK YOU!!!".

"You did this for me!?! You lied-...YOU LIED TO ME ABOUT MY FUCKING SICK DAD!!!!!", a scarce mix of rage and hurt flooded my veins, demanding to be heard and felt.