Dreamnotfound one shots

So proud

Huge tw: Ed, Purging, negative self thoughts

There Dream stood. Right beide his toilet, fingers hesitating. When did it get this bad? Honestly. He had told himself he would keep it under control. He had told himself that no matter what would happened, he wouldn't let himself cope like this.

Ever since he was in Highschool, he had never looked at himself the same. He had gone from the most popular kid in school, to an easy target. the cause for this wasn't exactly an exact reason. It was many things in his Highschool life that made it a living hell.
His parents got divorced, he was outed, and people thought he was seeking attention.
So people gave him attention he never wanted. They'd bully him.
Their favourite thing to do was body shame him.

They'd say he was fat, or overweight. If anything, he was underweight.

When the day of graduation finally came, Dream swore to himself that he'd stop letting the bully's get to him. He'd stop starving himself. He'd stop purging after meals. He'd stop.
But he never could.

Even years later.
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So there he was. About to throw up the dinner his wonderful boyfriend George had made him. God, he was being selfish.
George had worked hard to make him something for dinner, and now he was wasting it.

Dream pressed two fingers down his throat, waiting for the contents of dinner to come up.
Just like it always would.

He closed his eyes, and pretending this wasn't happening. That he wasn't lying to George everyday. That he wasn't letting his mind get to him.
But just then, he heard a voice from outside the bathroom door.
"Dream..? Are you okay in there?"
"Yeah" he called back.

George wasn't an idiot. And Dream knew that George knew, something was up.
His voice was scratchy when he responded to George then.
Though he didn't want to, it was probably time to tell George about the fact that he had an eating disorder.

So he got up, flushed, washed his mouth out, then opened the door slowly.
The bathroom was connected to their shared bedroom, and George was sitting on the bed. He wasn't doing anything, just deep in thought.
Dream walked over and sat down sheepishly
Beside him. He wasn't usually shy around him, so George noticed immediately.

"C'm here" he smiled weekly as dream laid on top on him. George wrapped his around dreams back, while Dream nuzzled his face into George's chest.

"I need to tell you something"
"What's up?"

George suddenly felt dream get really tense. And felt tears running down his boyfriends cheeks, soaking onto his shirt.
"Oh s-sorry" Dream sniffled
"Don't worry about it" George whispered as he pulled dreams face back into his chest.
"What were you going to tell me?"

Dreams breathing starting picking up as he tried to just spit the words out. He knew he couldn't say it. Because once he said it, it was real. He spent a few moments practicing his breathes. Listening to George's breathing to calm down.
Can you blame him? It was hard to admit.
Just then his stomach growled.

"Are you still hungry?" George asked, knowing he had just made dinner for him.

"Um.. no.." the blonde said as he looked up to see George.

George knew he was lying. He had a look of guilt and regret on his face.
If you didn't know him, you'd think he was rethinking his life. But no, he just had an life threatening eating disorder.

"But you're clearly hungry?"
"No it's okay, I'm full from dinner"
"No it's not, we can just have a dessert?"

As soon as the last sentence left George's mouth, Dream lost it.
George got a little excited to make something sweet, especially after dinner. Everyone knew George had a sweet tooth.