Boulevard to Polaris (Virago Series #1)

everything; evanesce

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CHAPTER TWELVE
everything; evanesce
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Like I promised to Avi, I hid how she wanted to elope with Caliem once the professionals finish his transplant. Even though I know it's a bad thing for her to do this because she's young, I'm not someone who can pose to stop her happiness. Lalo na ngayon at kitang-kita ko sa mata niya 'yung saya habang nakikipag-usap siya kay Caliem.

I blinked while staring at the two of them kasi umalis pa si Gazer para bumili ng pagkain. I looked at Caliem's features at ang masasabi ko lang ay talagang sumunod siya kay Gazer na gwapo kahit na halatang inaatake na ng sakit niya ang katawan niya. 

Sunod ko namang tinignan si Avi na talagang nagmana sa lahi ng mga Tolliedo na maganda, wavy ang buhok pero hindi tulad ko na morena ay porselana naman ang kutis niya. 

They suit each other so well. Naaalala ko kay Avi ay si Tita Avara, 'yung nakakatandang kapatid ng Mama namin ni Avi, at naaalala ko naman 'yung asawa ni Tita Avara kay Caliem, si Tito Lucas.

Sa pagkakaalam ko rin kasi ay ganito rin ginawa ni Tita Avara noon para lang makasama niya si Tito Lucas. She eloped and abandoned the necessities she'll get as a Tolliedo so she can marry Tita Lucas while Tito Lucas also neglected the beneficiaries he'll get as a Madrigal just because he wanted to be with Tita Avara. 

My Mom told me when I was a kid that their love was so unconditional and abominable up to the point that their last words before they died was each other's name. 

Both my Mom and Dad said they'll never forget how heartbreaking it was to see how the feud between the Tolliedos and Madrigals ended only right after their death. Well, if I remember it right, the history of Tolliedos and Madrigals are wild. 

Sa mga hacienda noon atsaka negosyong kalakalan ay talagang magkaaway ang dalawang pamilya pero natapos lang 'yun the moment that the three hijos of Madrigals fell in love with the tres marias of Tolliedos or more like natapos lang talaga ang away nila noong namatay na ang panganay ng dalawang pamilya.

When I was a kid, I thought it was only a fairytale told by my Mom so I can appreciate how powerful love is. But when I saw Tita Avara's portrait, I'm so surprised to hear that love can make someone crazier than they've ever been. And up until now, I can't help but wonder how exactly does love feel.

Napatingin ulit ako kina Avi at Caliem na parang may sariling mundo habang nagtatawanan. Nagniningning ang mata nila habang nag-uusap sila at hindi naman ako masyadong uto-uto para hindi makitang may gusto talaga sila sa isa't-isa. Napapaisip na rin tuloy ako kung hanggang saan ang pagmamahal nila sa isa't-isa.

Hindi ko tuloy maiwasang hindi mainggit. I mean, I'm already almost in my 30s pero sa tanang buhay ko ay hindi ko pa naranasang magmahal o magpaligaw man lang. Because I was home-schooled at sakitin ako noong bata hanggang naging highschool ako ay talagang mas nawili ako magbasa ng libro at mag-invest para lang sa sarili ko at sa gusto kong gawin sa buhay.

Noong College naman ay hindi ko 'yun napagtuunan ng pansin. I was too busy flourishing myself.

But it doesn't matter. Love can wait, 'ika nga. Iba rin kasi pananaw ko sa pagmamahal kaya siguro halos walang papasa sa'kin.

"Ate Aster!"

I blinked my thoughts away, "Yes?"

"Caliem has something to say." Avi smiled, hindi rin lumagpas sa paningin ko ang magkahawak nilang kamay sa ilalim ng kumot na parang pinapalakas ni Avi ang loob ni Caliem.