Hating Him (COMPLETED)

Chapter 18

I managed to let Reany out of her room. It was actually two rooms after Harden's room. And I wouldn't be shocked if that room were intended for Leo. After all kaibigan siya ni Harden and just like Wyatt and Theo, Leo is probably a VIP here too, as is Reany. Kaya ang swerte ng mga babaeng nagiging girlfriend nilang apat. Because they would be treated as VIP too kapag ganon. 

Kumatok ako sa pintuan nila. I thought I wound failed to let her out pero nang marinig niyang ako ang kumakatok ay binuksan niya ang pinto. She too has puffy eyes just like me. And guilt crept in me as I remembered she was a mess because of me. 

My puffy eyes was probably giving in that I have a problem. At least that's how I know what Reany think when I went to her room. She was hesitant to leave the room pero nang makitang umiyak ako, she didn't argue and just came with me downstairs. Specifically at the shore where I was told Leo had a surprise for her. She asked me if I'm okay, I told her not kasi hindi naman talaga ako okay. My hand hurts for damn sake! 

Iniwan ko siya ng nakarating kami sa shore. At pabalik na ako sa mansion nang makita ko si Leo na naglalakad sa pinanggalingan ko. He was smiling as he approached Reany. It made me stop walking at binalingan sila. Malayo ako sa kanila pero somehow I could tell that they were ok now. Nakahinga ako ng malalim. That means my guilt lessened a bit. 

Umamba akong papsok na sa mansion para makapasok na sa kwarto ni Harden pero natigilan din ako ng napagtanto ko kong anong dahilan bakit eager akong bumalik. Damn! He seduced me before I left his room. I was hesitant to leave his room just so I could make Reany leave their room pero ngayon mahangin at medyo nawala ang pagkaka-arouse ko, napaisip ako. Shit! If I didn't leave his room that instant, I'm sure I would give in to his seduction. At hindi ako pinanganak ngayon, I know what will happen if I stay in his room. Thinking about it scared me. 

Hindi ko alam kung bakit may nag iba sa akin. Dati naman Logan lang ang laman ng isip at puso ko but now that Harden existed, he made me feel confused. Hindi ko alam kung totoo bang gusto ko si Logan. The way I always give in to his kisses made me question my loyalty to Logan. 

Instead na bumalik sa loob, sa likod ng mansion ako tumungo. Confused as hell at my feelings. Alam kong gabi na, pero hindi ko kayang bumalik. What if he's still waiting? I saw his bulge before I left kaya alam kong arouse siya kanina. Ako din naman at nakakahiya yon. 

Umupo ako sa bench. Harap ang forest na sobrang dilim. Hindi abot ng ilaw. Staring at the dark made me scared kaya humarap ako sa mansion. Pero my back was facing the forest and my mind wasn't helping. Kung ano ano na lang ang naiisip ko na baka may lumabas doon at hindi ko makita dahil nakatalikod ako. Kaya humarap ulit ako. 

Hindi ko alam ilang minuto ako doong nakaupo. Nang magtagal na wala namang nangyayari sa forest ay lumipad ang isip ko sa nangyayari sa akin. My facade has been discovered. I was scared of course. Pero Harden didn't know about my real identity. He must knew me kasi sa kanila ang school and he probably saw my record na Eleanor Ortega ang pangalan. He didn't expect I was the villain they were talking about kasi baka alam niyang Curtez naman ang kalaban. But then, as what people said, baka nag disguise siya sa ibang katauhan para mapalapit sa kanya? Which I did and I don't know it was for that reason. Ang gamitin siya. 

I sighed deeply. Mukhang nagtatagumpay si Mom. Si Harden na mismo ang lumalapit sa akin. How ironic that he was being cautious at that villain girl pero siya mismo ang lumalapit. I on the other hand knew I am the villain and I'm trying to avoid him if I could. Kung hindi lang siya nagte-threaten to investigate my root, hindi na ako lalapit pa. Mom was vague about how I'm going to use Harden. Pero I know it has something to do with my Dad's work. He was constantly stressed these past few months. The only probable reason I could come up with is that I will have to make Harden do my biddings. And it will only happen if somehow we were romantically involved and I would never do that!