The meeting was cancelled when they saw me crying. Nataranta sila Mom kung bakit bigla bigla nalang ako umiiyak. Of course I didn't tell them why, I just told them I remembered something that made me emotional.
I isolated myself again for three days. Pero Hindi din ako maka iyak dahil panay ang pasok ni Mom sa kwarto ko. She was worried at pansin ko ding medyo guilty siya for a reason she know very well. Baka may hinala siya kung bakit ako misirable pero she was so prideful to admit it or it could be I'm just imagining things.
The only days I could let my self cry was when I'm with Fiona. Wala siyang trabaho tuwing weekends and instead of going out partying, sinasamahan niya ako.
"Are you sure about this, Elea? You will not tell him the truth?" Si Fiona. We were in her room. I was lying in her bed with my face in her pillow, crying for the battled heartache. I told her my plan. Gusto kong umalis at bisitahin si Lola sa Tennessee but she didn't like it.
I bit my lower lip to hid my sobs. "It's useless, Fiona. Kita kong maayos naman siya sa babae kaya why would I tell him? It's better to leave thing as it is, na akala niya ay kasal na ako kahit hindi," I said almost in a whisper.
I heard her sigh. "Just because you saw him okay with his fiancee ay hindi mona sasabihin. What if may chance pa kapag nalaman niya ang totoo? What if he's not really into that girl and you just wanted to believe that he's okay with her?"
Bumangon ako para maharap siya. Kita ko ang pag iwas niya ng tingin nang makitang namamaga ang mata ko.
"He's okay because he is. Why would he act okay if he's not? You didn't saw what I saw so don't tell me I just want to believe things!" naiinis at naguguluhan kong sabi.
Why would he hold that girl if he's not into her? Why would he stare at her as if she only matters and nothing else does? Why didn't he contact me if he wanted to be with me? Hindi. Hindi niya ako kino-contact dahil wala naman siyang pakialam.
But then, I looked down my hands as tears streamed in my eyes when I remembered he thinks I'm married. If I put myself in his shoes and I heard he got married while I'm waiting for us to be okay, I would probably be damn hurt. Baka ang resolba niya ay magpakasal din. Pero kung siguro ako, I would choose to leave the country and find my peace again.
Just like what I'm planning to do. I will visit my Lola in Tennessee and spend my weeks there. I will then visit Australia and spend my weeks or month there. I will let myself do what I didn't do when I still have amnesia. And then when the school year ends, I will enrol but not in the Philippines. I would never come back again. I will just find myself a job, probably in the Silverios company o kahit na saan huwag lang sa pilipinas. And when I'm capable of loving again, I will let myself do that.
That's what I will resolve with that. Pero ang harsh nang sa kanya. He will immediately settle? He didn't even let himself moved on or baka naman during my two years absence ay naka move on naman na siya kaya ang dali ko lang palitan? That our almost two months on their island didn't matter?
Despite my plans, pinilit parin ako ni Fiona na sabihin sa kanya ang totoo. I don't know why she has so much faith in Harden na halos gusto niyang paniwalaan na kapag sinabi ko ang totoo ay magiging okay din ang lahat.
"Couz, he has to know the truth. If you are hurt because you know he has a fiancee and he's getting married then how much more him? Ang alam niya kasal kana. He must be so hurt when he heard you're married!" pagmamatigas ni Fiona.
I wanted to argue that Harden was fine. He was so close with the girl, halatang inaalagaan niya yong fiancee but Fiona would always rebutted na baka nagpapanggap lang.
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