The reason I breathe!

Chapter 11!

Hesitantly I went to her room. The door was locked. Her dad said she never went outside. She didn't eat the food. My heart ached for my girl. I knocked on her door softly.

"Dad, please leave me alone", a weak voice.

“Mei…”, I called her. I was so terrified of raising my voice. I wasn't with her when she needed me in the first place. How much of a friend I am. I was selfishly thinking about me, my emotions and I totally ignored her.

“Yuzu, go away! I don’t want to talk with anyone”, came a reply. I got hurt when she told me she wouldn't talk to me. But I couldn't leave her by herself. I must show her that I will be with her forever. Then I'm going to do everything I can to bring my Mei back.

“Please let me in, Mei”, I spoke softly. I know she heard what I said. I know she's in the doorway. I just hear her crying.

“No Yuzu, I do not want to see you now. Why you have to come when everything crashed. I needed you. I didn’t have anyone”, her panting increased. She went to tears. I just want to hold her in my arms and wipe away her tears, to take away the pain I've caused.

I don't want to go home leaving her, so I sat down leaning over the door. I cried for her and said, “I am sorry Mei. I just want to make my mind free. I didn’t mean to hurt you”. I know the things I've done can't be reversed. I know how much she loved her mum and the only person she showed emotions to was me and I wasn't with her.

“You could have talked with me Yuzu. I was coming to your house, calling you… you ran away from me… pushed me and ran away from me”, I paused, “that killed me… being not with you… that killed me”, she started crying loudly. What have I done? I should have talked. I should have said how I felt.

“I couldn’t see you cry Mei.. please open the door”, I cried with her, “I will not leave you anytime… I promise”. She didn't open the door and I was so stubborn about not leaving her in that vulnerable state. I felt her seated on the other side of the door. I can't tell when I slept. I was so tired.

I jumped when somebody opened the door and I realized where I was the next morning. I saw Mei... her eyes were red and black beneath her eyes. She looked miserable. I tried to say something but was unable to. I took heart and reopened my mouth. I should do it for her. I can't get away from her. I hugged her and cried and said, “Mei…. I am sorry…. I should have been there but I promise I will not leave you”.  She hugged me back. She was my anchor all along. I love her so much to keep her from leaving. I'll do everything in my power to make her smile. I held her tight. She was in my arms. I cannot break her again.

I took her to the next sofa and lied so she could lie on my chest. I felt her hear beating fast like mine. I felt peace. A few minutes, I saw her sleeping on me. I kissed her ensuring I didn't leave the love of my life again.. Not a day at all.


**** Flash back Ends****
I snapped off when my friend Harumin called my name.

"Yuzu, you have to talk to her," she says. Tears fell on my face. "How can l, Haru?" I left her.. I promised her I wouldn't let her go, but... I left her. I betrayed her trust”,  I told her and said, “Can you take care of the shop.. I need to get some air", and I started walking.

"She's going to understand, Yuzu." You just have to talk," I heard Haru shout at me. I do not want to hear it. I just wanted to get out of here.