Illuminated By The Darkness

chapter 39

Tiara:

I was running up the stairs when I heard Eugene's office door open. I turned around. 

Big mistake.

Eugene was running after me. He was fast. I didn't stop either. Once I reached the top of the stairs, I turned around the corner towards my room. I almost made it. 

Almost.

I was about to open my door and his hands wrapped around me, next thing I know I was hanging upside down over Eugene's shoulder.

"Let me go, Eugene" I said still breathless from my sprint. 

"Not so soon princess" he said.

Instead of going to my room he turned us around in the direction of his room. Oh no! I began to thrash in his hold. Throwing random punches on his back to free myself. But all thoughts and fight left me when I felt a stinging sensation on my butt. 

He spanked me.

"I told you Tiara, if you behave like a brat, I will treat you like one." He said.

The moment we were inside his room he shut the door and locked it. With a hand on my lower back, he sent me flying onto his bed. I bounced on the mattress before composing myself.

I couldn't look at him. Was he going to take up on my offer? After all I was in his bed now. Darkness began to cloud my eyes.

"Look at me Tiara" he said

When I didn't, he straddled me resting his knees on either side of my hips. 

"I said look at me" he held my chin and forced me to look at him.

His brown eyes bore into mine. A tornado of emotions swirled in them. None of which I wanted to define.

"You are not broken" he said "You are a strong woman. You hear me? One strong fucking woman"

I shook my head. I was not strong.

Leaning forward he rested one hand beside my head while the other grabbed my face, his weight crushing me further into the bed.

"You are a fighter, a survivor. You have nothing to be ashamed of. What happened to you is not your fucking fault." He said into my face. "You fought the monsters to protect your sister, you have to be proud."

The fragments of my broken heart crumbled even more.

"But I couldn't save her. I failed her." I choked on my words. I failed Sullivan.

"Oh princess. You didn't fail. I know you tried" I closed my eyes.

'Promise me you will get us out'

'I promise'

"I made a promise to her. To get us out, but I couldn't" my eyes stung.

Eugene looked like he was hurting. 

I pressed my hands on his chest and pushed him away. He straightened and sat back on his heel while pulling me into a sitting position. My heart was bleeding, and there was no cure.

I moved away from him lowering my head and hiding my face in my palms. I let out a long breath. I felt his hand in my hair, tugging at my hair tie. The second he removed it my hair fell like a curtain covering my view of him. I shut my eyes real tight to hold my tears.

I miss her voice, her smile, her occasional laugh. I miss Amara. 

I sniffled.

"Fuck"