The Drug In Me (Ronnie Radke Love Story)

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**** So this chapter may be worded a bit weird and different, that's because I'm writing it partially when Ryker is drunk****

When I pulled myself together, I sat up and got dressed, going out and getting ready to eat.

But then my phone buzzed and I saw that I had a text from Luna saying "Were going for breakfast. Meet at Andy's bus. Now. Xxxx"

I got another from Echo, nearly as timid a text as she is in real life, saying "um, Luna says not to eat because we're going to eat together. She says to come to Andy's bus. Please..?"

I pocketed my phone and grabbed some shoes, sliding them on and turning to see Ronnie standing in the doorway.

"Where you going babe?" Ronnie asked me, and I jumped in surprise. "Luna and Echo want to have breakfast I guess" I told him, kissing him softly before walking out of the bus.

Ugly.

Fat.

Disgusting.

Worthless.

You don't deserve Ronnie.

You don't deserve anyone.

You deserve Him.

You deserve to be in pain.

You deserve to be alone.

You dont deserve to be happy!

The voice was back and brutal as ever.

No! Stop! L-leave me alone!

I hurried my way to the Black Veil Brides bus, running in and stumbling over shoes.

Ugly

Fat.

Horrible!

YOU'RE WORTHLESS!

WHORE!

SLUT!

BITCH!

WHINEY LITTLE SKANK!

I didn't say anything to anyone, I just opened the fridge and grabbed 2 Jack Daniels. They were probably Ashley's, but I couldn't care enough to not take it.

I opened the caps with my teeth and took a big swig, letting the liquid slide down my throat.

I took a breath and then jerked the bottle back up, downing more of it.

I finished the first bottle quickly, and I moved onto the next one.

Andy came in and saw me, and he rushed over, crossing the island in 2 sweeps of his gazelle legs, and I didn't have time to chug it all before he got there.

"Woah there" he said, and he grabbed my arm, pulling it down and taking the bottle away from me. "No, give it back!" I yelled, my voice thick with the smell of Jack.

"Luna! Echo!" Andy yelled, and I shook my head, falling over my words. "No! They don't need to know! No, don't tell anyone, don't-don't say anything!" I begged, grabbing Andy's shirt and pulling him down to my face. "Don-don't say anything, please!" I begged.

Oh god, what if he told Ronnie-..? What if he told Ronnie?!!

I darted around Andy and grabbed the bottle, downing the rest of it before he could stop me.

I stumbled and slipped to the ground, looking around.

I saw feet approach me, 2 feet, 4 feet, 6 feet! Ha ha! I can count in twos!

2 feet were in sneakers, 2 feet had no shoes, and 2 feet were in combat boots.

"She drank 2 whole bottles...." a deep voice said. Andy? "Andy, is that you? Silly, I told you not to tell anyone! You can't keep a secret, huh? I can't trust anyone around here.." I slurred, throwing my arms out to get up. I ended up smacking myself in the face.

"Ow, that wasn't very nice" I mumbled, and I heard 3 sighs, and then hands were on me, pulling me up.

I leaned into the closer girl, looking into her deep brown eyes. "Hmm, shh! can you keep a secret?" I asked, putting a finger to her lips. She nodded, and I giggled. "No, you're all liars! You'll tell everyone, wont you?" I said, leaning into a girl with blue eyes. "What about you, miss Sky Eyes?" I asked, giggling.

"You're hopeless" the girl sighed, and then she grabbed me and pulled me along. "Hey, it's like I'm paralyzed!!" I yelled, giggling more.

The girl shook her head, and I rolled my head to the side, looking at the girl with brown eyes. "Hey, you're Echo-echo-echo-echo-echo!" I said, making an echo for her name, cause it was Echo!

"And is that you Luna? Oh you guys!" I said, turning back to look at brunette with brown eyes. "It's confusing, you have the same hair, but different eyes! Why? And Andy, you're the same too!! If you weren't so tall, it's almost be like you were Luna cause of your brown hair and blue eyes" I said, explaining it to them, because I didn't know if they knew. And if they didn't know, well they should!

"Ok, so then no breakfast today. Andy, you should probably call Ronnie. But for now, she can lay here" Luna said, and she let go of me, leaning me on a small bed with a weird end that went upwards. Hehe, falling upwards..

"No, Ronnie doesn't need to know! Do you tell Max everything, or Andy? No!" I said, looking from Luna to Echo.

I turned my attention to the weird bed.

"Hey, it's like a third of a bed!" I said, rolling over and falling off. "No! It takes me 5 rolls to fall off of my bed, this isn't a very good bed, you only have to roll once to fall off!" I said, sitting up and crawling back on the bed. It was a bad bed indeed.

"Ryker, that's a couch honey" Echo-echo-echo-echo said. "Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh" I said, making sure to echo the word so that I could respect her name. It would be rude not to, you know.

"Lay down sweetie, just close your eyes" Luna said. "Well, you don't sleep until the moon comes out! But you're kind of like the moon, you are Luna!" I said, giggling as I explained.

I think for some reason they were annoyed. Hmm, maybe they had some plans before, and someone canceled on them.

"Ronnie? Uh, yeah, Ryker got here alright, but- no, they're not going out to eat anymore, well you see, Ryker-no, she's well, fine I guess, it's just-no she's not hurt, she's just-hold it for a second, let me finish. She drank 2 bottles of Jack Daniels. I tried to stop her but I was too late. Yeah, okay. The doors open. Uh huh, Luna and Echo are watching her right now. Ok, yeah, bye"

Andy had called Ronnie! I told him not to! "oi, Andy, you can't just keep my secret?!!" I whined, rolling over again. This time Luna and Echo stopped me before I fell of the bed-couch.

"Heh heh, it's like a trust exercise!" I exclaimed, and I kept randomly rolling, seeing if they would catch me.

They did, every time.

I stopped laughing when I heard the door to the bus clink open.

Even in my haze, I knew this would be bad.