Ravaged (CHURCH SIBLINGS 3)

CHAPTER 14

Cayenne choose to be at their house after I sooth her. Ayaw na niyang pumunta sa condo niya na katabi lang din ng akin at parehong building ng condo ni Milan at Adi— she is scared of the confrontation with her bestfriend. She's too guilty and doesn't know how to explain.

I couldn't calm down until I know if something really happened between Adi and Cayenne— alam kong kahipokritohan pero ang isipin na meron nga nagagalit na ako kay Adi. He is the good one, compare to me or even with Apollo. It won't be him sleeping with a girl if isn't Milan.

Dad already closed the club, mas mabuti na nga siguro 'yon. May nagbabantay pero madali lang naman akong nakapasok na wala silang kaalam-alam. I checked the CCTV on that room and I watch how I take advantage of Cayenne, I watched it countless times more than I should. Like how I feel that night, it came back to me again.

Nandidiri ako sa sarili ko. Nagagalit. She's responsive to my touches but she's out of her mind. Dapat hindi ko na ginawa but what done is done.

I watch until the part where they woke up. It gives me a deep sigh confirming that nothing happened between them.

Masama talaga akong tao, sinira ko ang footage na 'yon para itago sa lahat ang kagaguhan ko.

I now have a plan. I won't tell my crime to Cayenne just yet. Tsaka ko na iisipin kung paano ko matutulongan si Adi sa konsensya niya— sa ngayon, my priority is to be on the best side of Cayenne. I will make her love me, so much that there will be no space for hate if I will tell her what really happened.

"Why would you sell it? Minsan lang naman umuuwi si Milan ah. Don't sell it. Nandoon ako, if you want someone to talk to katokin mo lang ako kaysa sa bahay niyo malayo sa University. Tapos may internship pa ako, palagi akong nasa condo, paano 'yan?"

I became Cayenne's support system for days already. She cried on my shoulder few times already, sa bawat iyak niya gusto ko na talagang sabihin pero alam kong kailangan ko pa ng oras.

"Buo na pasya ko. Nasabi ko na kay mommy. Sabi ko tatanggapin ko na rin offer ni ate Papri na sa London na ako kasama niya. The culinary program there is one of the best in the world."

Nataranta ako. Ang usapan lang kanina ay ibebenta na niya ang condo unit niya. Pero bakit ngayon aalis na siya?

"Bakit ka aalis? Paano na ako niyan? Sino na kasama ko palagi?"

Natawa siya. I am happy that she somehow can do it now na hindi siya napipilitan.

"Matanda ka na ano ka ba. Kaya nga ng boyfriend ko tapos ikaw hindi mo kaya?"

I look away and swallow hard. She told her suitor about what happened with her during the party — she leave the detail that it is with Adi. Mas lalong naging determinado ang manliligaw niya and days after that she answered him.

I haven't had a chance to know him kahit na sabi ni Cayenne ipapakilala niya ako because I am her new bestfriend. And palusot ko palagi kapag nandiyan na ay may pupuntahan akong importante. But the truth is I do not want to be friends with the guy.

Because why would I? May balak akong agawin ang girlfriend niya tapos kakaibiganin ko siya?

"Siya 'yon iba naman ako."

Inagaw ko sa kanya ang kinakain niyang cookie at nilantakan. Fuck, it's so sweet. Hindi ba sumasakit ngipin niya?

"Are you sulking?"

Sumilip siya sa mukha ko. Damn, she's too close. Halikan ko kaya? Ipapaalala ko ba sa kanya kung anong ginawa ko sa kanya noong nakaraan?

"Hoy, nagtatampo ka nga?" nakangisi niyang tanong nang hindi ako umimik at ininom pati ang natitira niyang coffee blend.