is this real? Milly and Matt #HouseoftheDragon

intro (Matt's pov)

I've been struggling with my feelings towards milly for a while and I don't understand how it happened or anything for that matter; I just know that I like her and that I miss her and is driving me wild.
I know that this might look awkward and weird to most people and we both tried to push those feelings aside for our sake, on both parts and our number one thought was our age difference and we did try to ignore any type of feeling and nothing happened for a long time and certainly not when we were filming. Then months passed and I saw her like twice in that time and that pit feeling in my stomach kept growing and was starting to affect me and didn't know what to do. It wasn't until she called me because she needed some advice on something and at that time she had just moved to London, so I went and we acted as friends but throughout the night, I couldn't stop thinking what might happen if we decided right there and then to take things to the next level but were too afraid but at the end of the day, we never acted on our feelings but we were sure we were both having those feelings but pushing them away.
Then I had these trips planned and I knew my feelings towards hers and that she was also feeling stuff since one day at her place we kinda talked about it and then I told her about my upcoming trips and we agreed to try and spend time together to figure shit out, and when I tried to cancel the trips off to spend time with her, she then told me to go, so I went...

So, I'm here, on vacation not really enjoying myself and even my mum got that feeling but I said it's nothing, just that I was tired. She being my mum didn't believe me but said nothing else...
A couple days in and I was feeling miserable, and I decided to call her since we hadn't been talking since and I was going insane. I know for her tone she has been feeling the same as me which is making me crazier because now, I do need to go see her. It's early in the morning here where I am and I just noticed that detail because where milly is late at night but I also know she goes to bed late, but at the same time I thought she might not answer me because she has done that a few times whether on purpose or not, the fact is that she has been ignoring me since she sent me a text for my birthday while I was here on one of these trips and also, she's filming another tv show and I do not know her filming schedule...
So, I got up and searched on my computer for flights to Australia and thanks to the universe I found one today at 6pm to NYC and then to Melbourne and I'll be arriving late the next day, so without much thought, I booked, paid it, and got my luggage ready before I go for breakfast and to tell my friends that I'm leaving early. A few have been suspecting that I might have someone in my life, but I do not wanna say anything for respect to milly, especially since we do not even know what this is and fuck it; is none of their business. They will make fun of me nonetheless, but I don't care...
I arrived to the hotel's restaurant, and I see two of them already sat at the table..."Hey Matty, how was your sleep? Since you left the party early without saying anything..." – giving me looks – "I know, I know, I was just not feeling the mood and I was tired, but I got more sleep that I thought. I just think it's time to go home..." – "but we have 3 days left Matthew..." – he said with his mouth opened in shock, "I know Andy, I'm not in the mood and I'm sorry, I've been off, and I just need to go home, ok? We have another trip in January, and I'll try my best and not suck your mood" – I finished and he knew I wasn't gonna change my mind – "it's fine, I knew you were off these past few weeks, I just didn't know and still don't know what to say to you and I hope that whenever you're ready to tell us, we're here for you, ok?" - "yes, thank you. So, look, I'm leaving today, I booked my flight for 6 pm and as soon as I arrive to my destination I'll text you guys. Enjoy what's left of the trips and don't act like idiots" – I said while laughing for maybe the first time this trip which says a lot about my mind set, "I won't make any promises... now where are you going really?" - looking at me suspicious – "I have to make a stop somewhere before going home and don't make those faces, is none of your business but I do have to be somewhere and then I'll go home" – "whatever you say Matthew. Now please let's eat before you leave, I'm hungry as fuck
And that's what we did. We had breakfast where all of these fools made fun of me, but my brain only has space for milly and her only. I enjoyed more alone time at the pool before lunch; read a book, I wrote milly a letter to give her once I see her and after lunch it was time for me to do checkout where the lady at the desk looked at me funny for leaving early but whatever; I said it's work related, and the questions stopped...
I went straight to the airport and tried my hardest to pass swiftly without getting myself recognized even tho I noticed people taking pictures of me, so my location might be somewhere in the universe which I'm not a fan of, but nothing I can do about it other than ignore as best as I can, and one can say I'm an expert at that. I go through the airport and wait for my flight. At 5pm I text milly...

Mills: I'm at the airport on my way to you. You might think I'm insane and maybe I am, but I did tell you I'd do it, so I'm about to board a plane and I'll be arriving tomorrow night if everything goes as plan. Please text me your address so I can go as soon as you're home from work. I'll check myself at a hotel while I wait for you to get home, don't know at what time I'll be arriving and don't know the time difference and I'm already lost and lost of words to say to you, other than I'm dying to see you...
I take off in two hours, and as soon as I land, will let you know. Don't know where we are at but if you'll have me, that's all I can ask for. Yours, Matt.

While I wait to board, I realized I've never felt this nervous in my life and I might be dramatic, but everything will change after this. Whatever happens in the next couple of days, I truly just wanna see her and the rest will follow. That's what I keep telling myself...

I'm still writing, I'm on a strike...these two are making me inspired, so I'll keep going and hopefully any of you reading this will like this....

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