is this real? Milly and Matt #HouseoftheDragon

sudden desire (matt's pov)

hi guys, i'm back. at least for tonight's episode lol

1) it's because it's matt's 42th birthday in a couple of hours, so happy birthday matt, wishing you all the best always!

2) i hope we get few chapters or stories in honor of his birthday since we haven't gotten anything since last year and no for milly's birthday, so let's hope for more.

3) i'm getting better but not there yet to get back at this often as i was doing but i'll get there once i get my treatment on the go. thank you for your well wishes and all, love you!!

once again sorry for the cliffhanger but here it is the second part of this chapter...

let me know if there's more you wanna know in between if i'd be worth to tell or continue in present day :)

thanks for the support.

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The last few conversations I've had with milly have left me confused as to why she's been acting this way, and I need to know; it's been killing me. Milly is one of the most amazing humans I've ever met, and we became friends right away and our chemistry has been there since day one and everyone has noticed it and praised us for it. The more time I spend with her I realize that she's amazing and her friendship makes me so happy and has been one the best parts of doing this job. I know she's young and 18 years younger than me but that has never bother me because she's so mature for her age and she's an adult and no one has looked at us weird on set by our closeness and I'm starting to realize that those friendly feelings might be turning into more and I don't know how to go about it, so I've been ignoring my gut and continue filming and spending time with my mates and with milly. We used to go to dinners after a long day on set or breakfast and watch movies in one of our rooms and talk for hours about everything and nothing at all.

Then milly started to ignore me, wasn't answering my calls or texts and she only looked at me whenever we're in character doing a scene but as soon as they said cut, she would look away and ran away from me or looked at me and quickly looked other way. And I could not understand what was happening and it was driving me nuts. After she pushed me away twice in a spam of two days ignoring me and not wanting to talk to me and tell me what has been happening, I felt so bad and needed to think and do something for her to, so she can feel comfortable with me again. Filming was literally about to wrap and who knows when was gonna be the next time I'd see her since my schedule was packed and I didn't know much about her next projects other than her move to London.

I debated with myself if I should go to her room to see how she was doing before the wrap party but then Fabien came to mine, and everything got ruined and since I wasn't wanna tell him about this. I got ready, ate something and talked with Fabien and then it was time to go to that party.

When we got to the restaurant where we were gonna have dinner before going to the salon where the party was being held, I saw milly as soon as I entered the room, and she panicked and ran inside the bathroom and took ages to come out. Fabien asked me if I knew what was happening with her since she had been acting odd for days and everyone around in the crew knew something was up. I said I had no clue and wasn't lying because I had no idea, but I was determined to find out.

After she left me alone on the dance floor I definitely knew something was up and she was so conflicted like she wanted to tell me what was going through her head but didn't feel safe enough around me to be able to speak and also she was right, we were in a room full of people and sparks were flying between us for a moment before she snapped out of it and ran off once more. When I looked at her I saw something I had never seen in her eyes before and to be honest, that was the moment I started remembering that those feelings were there all along, but I had bottled them up but since I noticed she might be feeling stuff towards me, I couldn't breathe. She made me realize I need her in my life, and I need to do everything in my power to tell her how I feel and to have a chance with her.