MY BIG FAT ROMANCE

MBFR : 48

MBFR EPISODE 48 : THE PRECIPICE

CLYDE'S POV

The green wide surrounding looks peaceful as the cold wind nuzzles on my face.  I scrutinize the whole place, there are white cemented thing that is rectangular in shape, the green grass growing around it and a tall trees sheltering it. 

The place is perfect for someone who have a tired soul, for someone who fought so hard to win in life, for someone who just wishes to vanish in this world, and or maybe for someone who just want to remember all the happy memories they spent with someone. 

I look up and witness the bluer sky and birds that are flying freely in the air. And I realized that human are just like birds, we need somewhere or someone we can call as home, somewhere or someone we can lean on when the thought on our heads became heavier, and somewhere and someone that serves as a medal for us to strive harder.

Sooner or later, this green grass will turn brown. This abundant leaves will someday fall on the ground and decompose. 

Someday, these tall trees will lose their strength and will let themselves sway by a strong wind. 

However, not all things that was perished will be totally gone and forgotten. Some of them stays on our pockets just like the beautiful flowers we captured on spring, the snow man we build on winter, the red-orange leaves we collect on autumn, and the starfish we embrace on summer. 

All of those things will have their new face and new survival when the new season begins. Just like how water grows the plant, just like how water refresh every leaves and just like how water feed the humans. 

That's the reason why the earth's surface was composed of 71 percent of water because water means hope, water means surviving, and water means even though some thing has failed to exist that doesn't mean it wasn't worth it.

My sight fall on the grayish calligraphed name that is right before my feet. I laid down the bouquet of flower that I am holding. 

Dinama ko ang pangalan na naka-ukit doon. May naramdaman akong paghinayang dahil sigurado akong magiging masaya siya kung ano man ang narating ng mga taong mahal na mahal niya ngayon. 

Sigurado akong yayakapin niya sila nang mahigpit at sasabihing masaya siya para sa kanila. Sigurado din akong mas magiging masaya siya kaysa sa mga taong nagtagumpay dahil alam ko kung gaano kabuti ang puso niya sa iba. 

"Patawad dahil nahuli ako." Sambit ko at hindi na napigilang mapayuko. 

Kumuha din ako ng kandila at nagsindi sa gilid ng kaniyang libingan, "It might be too late but I want you to know that I really...really love your daughter and I want to ask for your permission to marry her." 

"Baka mamaya bumangon sa libingan si Papa at sakalin ka ah." Wika ng mahal ko na hindi ko napansin ang paglapit sa akin. Yumapos ito sa braso ko at hinawakan ko naman ang kamay niyang nakayapos doon. 

"Joke lang!" tinapik niya ang braso ko bago ilipat ang tingin sa lapida ng kaniyang ama, "P-Papa, I'm getting married, hindi ko na madadala ang apelyido mo pero alam mo namang nasa puso kita palagi, 'di ba?" 

"Nakakaselos naman, bakit parang mas malambing ka pa kay Papa mo kaysa sa aking asawa mo?" umingos ako at  kinuha ang kamay niyang nakapulupot sa braso ko. 

Hindi niya ako pinansin pero kita ko ang pilyong ngiti sa mga labi nito, "Pa, kapag ito nag-inarte isusunod ko na siya diyan sa inyo." 

Namilog ang mata ko bago napangusong muli, "Hindi pa pwede. Gusto ko pang makita ang mga magiging anak ko."