ajax pertropulous (TMBLR)

MIGHT BE IT

@eddiethebanishedhq

Pairings: Ajax Petropolus x Fem!reader
Summary: ^^^
Warnings: fight, angst.

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white knuckles, clenched jaw, killer headache’s.

your eyes are on fire and they’re burning from the tears. you’ve been crying for what feels like years.

it was so stupid and purely out of his jealousy.

“is there something wrong with you that you can’t see it?” Ajax yelled at you, his hands throwing up in the air as he paced around the room, his nose flared as he took sharp, quick breaths.

“there is absolutely nobody else! is there something wrong with you that you don’t trust me?” you shouted at him, your hands in your lap as they shook in fear and anger

you had been focused on studying and working your shift at the café in town ‘too much’ and not paying attention to him, making him think there was someone else you were seeing that was in town.

so that’s what brought him to your dorm, at 11 at night

“how am I supposed to trust you when I don’t see you, you have made no time for me, I’m your last priority and I’m sick of it! I’ve had enough!”

“school is more important than us! Ajax you can’t look me in the eyes and tell me we’ll last forever because we don’t know that as much as we might want it to, people change, feelings change, we don’t know what will happen and I don’t want to put you first in case we don’t last” you stated, sobbing as you stood up to keep your shaky ground

“well clearly your feelings have changed already, and it’s obvious that I’m not even on the list of priorities anymore, hell buying teddy bears are before me,” he shrugged, pointing to the pile of stuffed teddy’s in the corner of your room

“they haven’t changed! I still care for you so much! you are on the list, I promise!” you argued, going in to hug him but he pushed you away

“you’re full of shit! I haven’t seen you in weeks! and you can’t even say you love me anymore!” he sighed heavily, his hand in a tight fist as he looked at you

he wasn’t a guy to get mad that easily, but if he didn’t get enough attention from the one he so desperately loves, he grows irritated and makes up scenarios in his head to justify your actions until he can’t no more

“I can, I say it all the time! look, you’ve had a shit day and you saying this because your tired, just go have some sleep and we will talk tomorrow, after all, it’s Saturday” you nodded your head, trying to get him to understand

“I have had a shit month, do you not realize I haven’t been able to sleep without you next to me? if I go back to my bed, all I’m gonna do is lay there in self pity, wandering what I did for you to leave me” he teared up as he paused

“trying to remember what it’s like to hug you and actually talk to you”

it was silent for a moment, you stood there, hugging yourself as you cried violently with him there, standing there in front of you but his eyes anywhere but on you

“you have work tomorrow” he stated, knowing you won’t talk to each other for a long time after this

“I think this might be it for us”

“you don’t mean that” you sobbed, stepping towards him desperately, but he only walked around you, towards the door

“no, I do! I mean every bit of it! I’m sick of not knowing how you are o- or what’s going on in your life! I’m tired of walking into the Weathervane and seeing Tyler all over you! I’ve had enough” he yelled, grabbing the door handle and walking out of your room, shutting the door loudly behind him.

you stood there, your head pounding as you stared at the door, waiting for it to open to reveal you beloved boyfriend again, but with a smile planted on his face and we went to hug you.’

but he was never there again. the door never opened.

you backed up into your bed and flopped on the mattress as you cried, staring at the ceiling that seemed more blank then usual.

you never wanted it to end like this. you never wanted it to end full stop. all you wanted was some time to yourself to fully commit to Ajax and time to study.

you cried all night, wondering if that was really it, if that was actually the end of you and Ajax.

you didn’t sleep that night, wondering if Ajax wasn’t either.

he wasn’t. technically.

when Ajax got to his dorm, he went straight to the bathroom with tears in his eyes, he looked at himself in the mirror.

he was a mess, he reached up to his beanie and wished his power was permanent as he pulled it off, his body turning to stone just as a tear fell from his eye, the salty drop of water rolling down his stoned cheek, leaving a dark grey streak against the light grey stone of his face.

he knew he wouldn’t get any sleep and he was exhausted, so at least he was unconscious.

–

you walked towards the door, knocking on it softly.

you awaited for the arrival of Ajax after knocking again

you had called Tyler before your shift and told him you felt too sick to come into work.

“Ajax?” you called out through the door, you didn’t fully expect him to answer, but you did think he would at least tell you to go away

you felt the doorknob and twisted it slowly, the door opening as you quietly pushed it.

you peaked your head in, looking around the one bed dorm, seeing it empty.

you stepped in, holding your tote bag close to you

“Ajax?” you called out again, looking around further, seeing no one. you looked over at his bathroom, seeing it cracked open. you cautiously strolled over to the door and opened it after hearing no noise coming from it.

you walked in, seeing Ajax fixing his beanie, the mirror covered

“what are you doing here?” he asked, looking at the bag clutched to your side.

you reached in the bag and pulled out one of his zip up hoodies, handing it to him

he nodded his head, understanding what was going on

“already giving my stuff back, thanks” he said disappointedly

“doesn’t smell like you anymore” you stated, shaking your head at his statement

“I’m really sorry I haven’t made time for you, I love you, I really do. I-I’ll try harder, I’ll spend every second with you if even a part of you still wants me, I can’t lose you, Ajax.” you sobbed, walking closer to him

you pulled out something from your bag and gave it to him

“even if it was my fault I missed you. I couldn’t help but buy these. I have…too much of them, every time I get paid, I go to the store and buy as many as I can with the money.” you smiled softly as he held the stuffed snake

he looked at you and stepped closer, pulling you towards him. holding you in a month awaited embrace

“I love you, so much, I don’t know what you want me to do to show you that, I’ll quit at the weathervane if you want, but I do need to study” you whispered in his chest, humming at the warmth

“I don’t see how we can’t just study together, even if it’s just for a minute a day I’ll be happy, just as long as I see you” he shook his head

“ok, not a single minute, make it 10” he chuckled quietly

“you don’t have to quit, but just stop spending all your money on these, just have one of these” he pulled of one of his rings that slithered around his fingers, dropping it in your hand

“I love you” he muttered

you looked at him and smiled, leaning up to kiss his cheek.

he grabbed your face and redirected you to meet his own lips

“I missed you”