ajax pertropulous (TMBLR)

STRANGERS

@eddiethebanishedhq

Parings: Ajax Petropolus x Fem!reader
Summery: Ajax avoids you after breaking up like he's never even met you
Warnings: mention of breakup other than that nothing.

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you stared at the back of his covered head, noticing the way the beanie moves as the snakes slither around underneath.

he must've felt someone looking at him, cause he turned around and caught your gaze, he flinched at the eye contact and turned away, shifting in his seat.

you used to be so in love.

If, a few months ago, he had caught you staring, he would of smiled warmly and blew you a kiss.

but that's what happens when you break up, those things seem like a distant memory.

yet you are still you, the person he fell so deeply for.

and he is still he, the one you loved ever so dearly

isn't it strange you fell in love only to end up falling out of it, as if the love was never there at all? like it was playing tricks on you and you had imagined it.

But, alas, people change, and it's strange when people can change from strangers to friends,

from friends into lovers

yet become strangers again.

now it's just like how it was before, when all you knew were each others names.

but this time you had memories, good and bad.

memories that hurt to remember because you know that you will never re-live them.

it hurts to remember that they are just memories and now only live in the past.

you tried to think back to exactly what you lost other than him himself in the process of the break up.

you lost love, you lost a friend. but you felt like you lost everything.

if you had the chance to go back to how it was, you would.

if you had the chance to hug him or kiss him again, you would

but you can't, and you know there will never be another chance

you can't help but wonder if he misses you too, if he lays on his bed and looks at the empty side where you would be.

you can't help but wonder if he has other feelings other than the dull way he looks at you.

and the way he looks at you now is a reminder that you lost him, the way he looks at you makes it seem that he never loved you at all, like he doesn't even know you anymore

you wanna go back to the way it was before, back to the love, back to the fun and back to him

but you can't, he'll never take you back.

because now you are once again strangers.

like you were before.

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you sat by the lake where you and Ajax used to sit, where you used to read to him, where you would feed the ducks.

you had a book in your hand and you gaze shifted onto a moving figure.

a few meters away, Ajax stood with bread in his hands, he ripped off pieces and threw them to the ducks by the shore.

his face looked red from where you were, as if he was embarrassed by something.

he didn't have a smile on his face as he fed them, more like a frown.

you pulled your gaze off of the boy, trying to get your reading done, but in the corner of your eye, you saw his frame turned to you.

his mouth with slightly agape and his eyes were rested, as if he was tired.

you didn't want to look at him, you didn't want to see how he looked at you.

but your head turned on it own, letting you face the boy from afar.

he didn't flinch when your eyes met him, he just stared at you until his gaze moved to your book, you could see his Adams apple bobble, he gulped as he looked at you.

you couldn't make out what his eyes held as he stared.

he flinched. before turning away, wiping his nose.

you watched as he looked up at the sky before turning to you, taking a step forward like he was going to you, but he walked away instead, towards the school, adjusting his beanie as he did so.

when he took the step you half expected him to sit and read with you, but now that you sat there alone, you realise it wasn't a belief, it was hope.

you hoped he would of sat with you.

but of course he wouldn't.

but you're not together anymore

you're strangers again

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I don't know why I wrote this, it was supposed to be something totally different but the words just wrote themselves.