ajax pertropulous (TMBLR)

SHE FELL FIRST

@loveharlow

PAIRING; Ajax Petropolus x Fem!Reader

SYNOPSIS; [3.6k] Y/n was under the impression she had been building a genuine relationship with Ajax, until she finds out the truth, one she isn’t sure that she can forgive.

WARNING(S); swearing, angst (so much fkn angst bro), it’s just dramatic and sad guys, moments of fluff, it’s a trope that we hate and love, hate me now love me later, pre-Wednesday’s arrival, mentions of Bianca Barclay x Xavier Thorpe

A/N; Anon, you are so right. I see a lot of people talk about him but there’s so little writing for him, it makes me heart hurt. BUT, I made this sad because there isn’t enough heart-wrenching angst for him.

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SOMETIMES, I QUESTIONED HOW NAIVE ONE PERSON COULD POSSIBLY BE. Me, specifically. I’m questioning myself. How naive could I be to think it was real? How stupid did I have to be to believe that someone could actually feel something for me? Actually be in love with me? Weeks ago, I would’ve taken the thought to heart and cherished it — being enveloped with the warm feeling of love at the thought of knowing I had someone. Knowing I had him.

Now, here I sit on my bed in my dorm, crying like a widow while soaked from the rain outside. Now, the thought itself puts a bitter taste in my mouth accompanied by a stinging sensation in my chest.

Reminiscing on the past few weeks of my life had me questioning everything about me. I thought it was real. I thought I finally had it…

3 MONTHS AGO

“Y/n!” I could hear my name being bellowed in the halls, turning around slowly to try and spot the face behind the voice. My eyes stopped on an out of breath Ajax down the hall, hands on his knees and face flushed as I caught glimpses of him through the bustling crowd. He used one lazy hand to wave me over as he stood up and straightened out his school blazer.

I cocked an eyebrow and small smirk as I made my way to him, pushing my way through the crowd until we were standing face to face. “How can I help you?” I said in a fake sophisticated tone.

Ajax palmed the back of his neck, looking around nervously. He chuckled skittishly before stepping closer to be more within my hearing range, the chatter in the halls growing louder as others gathered with their friends and respective cliques. “I was just wondering if you wanted to go out with me this weekend? Not like we usually do. As a date…”

I stood in place for a few moments, lips parted in disbelief. I had to stop myself from looking around for the cameras, thinking this was some kind of prank. Forgive me for how childish this may sound but I couldn’t process the fact that Ajax, my best friend and guy I’ve had a huge thing for since I got to Nevermore, was asking me out on a date.

“Y/n?” He tilted his head at my silence. Blinking to bring myself out of my thoughts, I smiled bashfully, looking down at my shoes.

“Yeah. Yeah, that’d be cool. That would be great.” I said, looking up at him through my lashes with a smile. An equally nervous but anticipating grin on his face, both of us breaking out into a small fit of chuckles.

All of a sudden, the bell signaling our next class had started to ring throughout the school, both of us looking away before turning back to one another.

“I’ll text you. Alright?” Ajax spoke happily while walking backwards.

I nodded in agreement, straightening out my tote bag over my shoulder. “Bye, Jax.” I spoke while turning my back to him to head off towards my class. I couldn’t wipe the bright look off of my face the entire way there.