"You alright Baby?" Sarah asked me nervously. "Yeah I'm ok." I say smiling at my girlfriend. I lay my head on her shoulder and she plays with my hair. "You sure?" She whispered not convinced. "Yeah. Im fine. My stomachs bothering me a little." I admit. "Still?" JJ asked looking up from his spot driving the boat. "What do you mean still?" Sarah asked confused. "She was throwing up the other night after dinner." He tells her. I groan. The three of us decided to take an early morning boat ride. "Why didn't you tell me?" Sarah asked putting a hand on my forehead. "I feel a lot better now." I say annoyed. "I'm fine." I say sternly. Sarah nods and we continue our boat ride enjoying the silence.
As we get off the boat nausea and dizziness overwhelms me. I reach out for my brother gripping into his shirt as darkness takes over.
Sarah's POV
"Y/N!" JJ calls shaking my girlfriend. "What happened?" I ask concerned as he picks her up and carried her toward the house. "I don't know she just passed out." JJ said walking faster than usual. When we got to the couch he laid her on the couch and put a hand on her forehead. "She doesn't have a fever..." I pull her sweatshirt off. "Maybe she just got to hot." I pause seeing how thin she was. She was wearing a long sleeved cropped shirt. Her ribs were poking through. "Oh my god..." I mumble tears stabbing my eyes. "My beautiful girl." I whisper kissing the top of her head. "What do we do?" I ask JJ concerned. He looked over his sisters frail body. "I'll talk to her. Trust me don't say anything to her..." He mutters concerned. "What? Why?!" He shakes his head. "Because she gets dangerous when she gets emotional. I don't want her to hurt you." JJ admits looking up at me. "She wouldn't..." I mutter. "I'll talk to her. Has she said anything to you that would suggest why she's doing this to herself?" I shake my head thinking back. "She hasn't worn her bathing suit in weeks. Or any crop top." I say shuddering. If I had picked up on these things then this wouldn't have happened. "Hey none of this is your fault. I know she is your girlfriend but she is also my sister and she has been through a lot. She knows how to hide things." He says pacing around. "I just wish I noticed." I say holding her hands. "I know. Me too." He sighs nervously.
JJs POV
"Morning sunshine." I say smiling down at my little sister. "Hey what happened?" She asked rubbing her eyes. "You passed out on the boat. I guess you're dehydrated from all puking you have been doing recently." I chuckle. She squirmed in her seat. "Yeah. I'm feeling better." She lies. "Why aren't you eating. You know how dangerous it is." I say getting right to the point. "I don't need to tell you shit!" She screams standing up. "You do. Because I'm not losing you." I say as she paces around. "I thought you wanted me out of your hair." She says annoyed. "When did I say that?!" She rolls her eyes. "The other night!" I shake my head. "No I didn't." I groan realizing what she was doing. Starting a fight so she didn't have to talk about this. "You know how dangerous it is to starve yourself. It's exactly how mom died and you are doing it to yourself?" I say calmly. "I'm not enough J." She says dropping to her knees. "Yes you fucking are. You are perfect just the way you are." I say holding her tight. "Sarahs going to leave me. She can do so much
Better. I'm just the broken girl from the cut." She sobs into my chest. "You are so much more than that. You are amazing. Starving yourself is killing yourself. It isn't going to make her stay. It's going to take you away from her. Just like it took Mom away from us." I say tears falling. "I need help." She cries. "That's why I'm here." I say tucking the hair behind her ear. "I'm always here for you."
2 days later Sarah's POV
"Hey Babe. Can I borrow a tampon?" I say walking into the bathroom. I freeze seeing Y/N with a blade to her arm. She quickly puts it on the sink and puts a towel over her arm. "Baby girl..." I whisper grabbing the towel and wiping away the blood. I wrap her arm in gauze from the first aid kit and take a minute to think of what to say. "This needs to stop. You hear me?" I say looking her in the eyes. She nods slowly. I pick up the blade. "If you want to cut something cut me. Not yourself baby." I say gently. She shakes her head. "I can't hurt you." She says shocked. Hurting you is hurting me." I say tossing the blade in the trashcan. "Why would you do this to yourself?" She shrugs. "When I was younger it helped me focus. I could out of my head about my Dad." She whispers voice breaking. "Oh baby." I sigh kissing her forehead. "He isn't ever going to hurt you ever again. I'm here for you. And so is JJ."
