GAP 2: ROAD TO FOREVER

CHAPTER 43 : D-DAY

The day i have been dreading the most had come

Today is the day that Mon will be leaving for the U.S.

I know it's not for good but I don't know why I feel like she isn't coming back

I Started today with a heavy heart...

knowing that I had to let her go, But at the same time, knowing that I couldn't take her leaving.

I told myself that I had to smile today.

I don't know if Mon was able to hear and see me but in the slight chance that she can, I wanted to leave her with a good memory.

I can cry later.

I strengthened my resolve to act happy until the end.

I will send her with a smile! That's what I told myself

I said my goodbyes to Mon's parents and took my time to talk to Mon.

I held her hand for the last time and kissed her forehead.

All the while, all I was thinking of was don't cry, don't cry, don't cry...

I had let her go because we didn't have a lot of time left.

Her flight will leave soon and we can't delay. She still had to be transported to the airport.

We made sure that Mon had the best care possible.

Her ribs were still not fully healed and she was still unstable, so I had requested for a doctor to come and deliver her to the U.S just to be safe.

I don't want to take any chances.

I couldn't come with her to the airport because I couldn't risk another controversy.

I am not confident that I won't break down when I see Mon leave.

No slash that... I was sure that I would break down.

I'm barely able to contain it even now.

I can only smile because I know you're still here.

I don't want to make her see me like this.

To everyone else, I was a mess.

I knew, I couldn't hide it and they all saw it.

The hollowness of my heart and the pain that it carries.

I felt their pity whenever they saw me.

I'm amazed I even made it this far.

I've abused my body past its breaking point and I know it'll break soon.

The saddest part about it, is knowing you won't be there beside me when it does.

I really do love u Mon.

More than you'd ever know.

I'd do everything for you...

I can even smile when it hurts.

S: enjoy your vacation love!

Enjoy it to the fullest!

Do all the things that u wanted to do and visit all the places we always wanted to see.

Take care of yourself and get well soon!

Follow the doctor's instructions ok?

I know you'd always do well...

You always did!

I had full trust that you can get through this! Just hang on ok?

I'm sorry that I couldn't be by your side...