GAP 2: ROAD TO FOREVER

CHAPTER 93 : REALIZATIONS

Mon's POV

When I came to be,
I found myself in Sam's arms

I wanted to check if I was dreaming because I didn't want to let her go if it was

I didn't want to wake up knowing that I had only imagined her here with me

I wouldn't be able to take it if I opened my eyes and find her floating somewhere lifeless in the sea... alone and cold

Shit Mon! You need to keep it together!
You need to find Sam!
You can't be stuck here!
You can still save her Mon!

God! I'm begging you, please don't let this be a dream!

I hugged Sam tighter... Afraid of letting go
Then I pinched myself hard to check if this was indeed reality

when I felt the pain, i smiled...
this is a good sign

I then opened my eyes and saw that she was still there

I released the breath i didn't know I was holding all this time

The knots on my heart also slowly came undone

Yes! This is the only thing that matters Mon!

As long as Sam is here!
We can work out the rest later!
I can make her understand!

Now that my memories are back, I have the rest of my life to prove to you Sam how much I love you!

This time, i would never let you go

I vow to love u like u deserve Sam!

I am sorry for what I put you through and thank u for staying by my side!

Thank u for loving me Sam

You have loved me more than I deserved

I was busy reminiscing my past and my vows to my future that I had forgotten where I was

Then all of a sudden, the memories from a couple moments ago became clearer

I saw Sam panicking...

I Saw her carrying me out of the water

I Saw her tired and devastated face as she tried to soothe me while I was in pain

Then i cringed when I remembered scratching her everywhere in sheer panic

and i remembered biting her shoulder when i was writhing in pain

what did I do?!
Why did I bite her?!
Shit! Shit! It looked bad!
She was even bleeding for crying out loud!
GOD!!! You're so crazy Mon!
Why did u hurt her?!
You have no excuse to hurt her Mon!
You should endured silently!

and you, Sam! i knew u loved me, but why did u stay?!

You don't have to prove your love to me this way! U idiot!

Why did u allow yourself to be hurt like this?!

I was hurting u over and over... so why?!

You should've just left me Sam! Or you could have just left me alone!

I would have been fine!
It didn't have to be this way!
You don't deserve this Sam!

You should never allow people to hurt u like this!

Not me, not your grandma, not yourself ... not anyone!

I was crying silently, overwhelmed, exhausted and drained

The pain was horrendous, but it gave me the missing piece I was looking for

I finally remembered!
It's still a little jumbled, but I got most of my memories back!