GAP 2: ROAD TO FOREVER

CHAPTER 83 : TRAUMA

M: like me drowning?

(Sam was so startled. She looked at me so seriously and was out of words. I saw her turning paler and the hand I was holding was starting to sweat

After what felt like an eternity of her trying to soothe out her emotions, she was finally able to speak)

S: u knew?

M: I can read between the lines u know. I'm not that oblivious.
What other reason could there be for your sudden hatred of the water Sam?
The only major thing that happened was Me almost dying so yeah I connected the puzzles together

S: so u were just guessing?

M: pretty much but I guess I finally have my answer now.
Can u finally tell me Sam?
I've been really patient right?
Until when are u going to be like this? I deserve to know Sam... Please tell me. I can take it!

S: can I tell u later? It's kind of a heavy topic and this isn't really the right time or place Mon

M: then tonight?

S: hmm...

M: ok i'll wait but for the meantime Sam, look at me

(I placed my hand on her cheeks and angled it so she was looking at me)

M: i'm here. I'm fine. I'm not going anywhere Sam.
You won't lose me again so I need you to brighten up and enjoy today with me!

If you're still scared, just don't let go of my hand then.
Here (i then held her hand in mine before placing a tender kiss on her forehead.

Unexpectedly though, that made her cry.

Sam's emotions were really all over the place today.

I don't think going to the beach was the right decision.
She's obviously suffering being here and I can't even help ease her pain)

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Sam's POV

I tried my best to calm my mind down but the memories were so vivid

The nightmares kept appearing

I kept seeing Mon's lifeless body floating on the water

I tried to shake it off but no matter what I do the image was stuck

Whether i close my eyes or try to focus on the scenery or even think of work, nothing was working

All I could do was drink more wine in the hopes that it numbs the pain

Mon noticed soon enough and I was kicking myself for not being able to hide my emotions well enough

I wanted her to enjoy today. Me suffering was enough. I didn't want to drag her down with me so I tried my best to smile.

I took whatever food she gave me and smiled as naturally as I could but I knew she could still tell I wasn't alright...so in the end I still had to admit that I wasn't fine, much to my frustration.

Great job as usual Sam

I took heavy breaths and stared at the sea thinking at how the water almost took everything away from me and it made me depressed even more

The next thing I knew Mon was already holding my hand

I was even more surprised when she mentioned drowning

I was panicking
I didn't know what to think

Did she get her memories back?

Is she ok?