S: what do u call this then Mon?
M: I am trying Sam!
I am still hanging on!
I'm still fighting!
I opened up my heart to u right?
Even though I don't have my memories yet, I still chose to be with you right?
Why are u not satisfied?!
Y are u blaming me like this Sam?
S: Mon all your doctors said the same thing
Your memory loss should have been temporary
The reason why you haven't recovered them is because you don't want to remember!
Funny huh? They said it's a defense mechanism from past trauma!
But what about us Mon?
Your parents, ur friends and me what about us?
What do we have to protect ourselves from the trauma that you gave us?!
You choosing to die. Alone!
It was the most selfish thing u could have ever done!
U didn't think about us at all!
U don't care how we would feel!
M: all I ask is a little more time Sam!
I can't give u answers to things I don't know!
I want to tell you you're wrong!
That I would never do that to you! but I don't have the answers right now!
I need more time Sam!
You doing this now is not helping!
All u do is blame me!
You're pushing all your frustrations to Sam!
That's not right!
U are being too unfair!
S: you know the doctors said the same thing
They said All we had to do was wait
Wait until you're ready but from how it's looking, I don't think that you'll ever be ready Mon.
Be honest with me
Do u still want your memories Mon?
M: I do! Of course I do Sam!
S: haaah see even now, u still can't be honest with me
You keep on forgetting Mon that I know you the best!
Next time you lie, hide your hands.
You have a habit of opening and closing your hands in succession when you're lying and even if I don't look at your hands, your eyes would have been enough to tell me you're hesitating Mon!
You're scared right MonMon?
M: and what's so wrong with that?!
Don't I have the right to be scared Sam?!
U just told me that I killed myself!
Do u expect me to be ecstatic to get my memories back?!
S: u were scared since the beginning Mon. U know that
It had nothing to do with what you just found out now.
Stop making excuses and tell me the truth!
M: I was scared because I knew something went wrong!
Nobody was telling me anything but I am not stupid Sam!
I wouldn't have been in this mess if nothing traumatic happened!
I was scared! And i still am!
I don't know what I would do if I remembered!
Will I be the same person as I am now?
Will I still love u?
Did i do something bad?
Would I regret remembering?
I don't know what to feel Sam!
I woke up in a freaking hospital in another country with none of my memories Sam!
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GAP 2: ROAD TO FOREVER
Fanfictionfan made. Mon's & Sam's POV alternate storyline when book 1 ended. is love really all that we need? can we overcome our overwhelming gap when we fight for our love? what are we supposed to do when all we can do is fight a losing battle? Will we stil...
