S: make fun of your feelings huh?
When did I ever do that?
I have been nothing but sincere to you Mon!
I always put u first!
M: then why are u making me feel like what i'm feeling doesn't matter Sam?
U wanted me to be honest to you. I am being honest right now!
S: because it doesn't make sense Mon!
Ur scared of me leaving u?!
I will never leave u Mon
I couldn't afford to leave!
If there will be anyone leaving Mon, that would be you!
M: and why would I ever leave?
S: because i'm not good enough
Because u can't trust me enough!
Because You can't love me enough!
I don't know Mon!
I never got my answers...
so how about u tell me Mon!
What do I have to do to make u love me enough...
M: how can u even say that Sam?
I love u! U know I do!
Why are u doing this to me?
I don't even know what i did Sam!
S: you left me Mon.
That's what u did
We promised to talk about it right?
Our story and why I hated the water?
It's because whenever I see the water I am reminded that you would rather die than stay with me!
There's your brutal honesty Mon!
I hope you're happy!
Do u still have any other questions?
M: what?
I chose to kill myself?
What? What are you talking about Sam?
how could i have done that?!
i would never Sam!
I would never hurt u like that!
You must have remembered it wrong!
S: but u already did
U already hurt me Mon and you're still hurting me!
More than u could ever know Mon!
U should have just killed me instead... that would have hurt less!
I guess I was harder to love than I thought huh...
Dying was better than staying with me right?
How about I just die instead and set u free Mon?!
M: Sam don't ever think that!
Why are u thinking like that?!
Why are u talking about dying?!
I never asked that!
Why would u ever feel that I would want that?!
Hey look at me Sam!
S: i guess we can blame the sea
It was too peaceful
It made me realize how tired I was
I think I understand u now Mon
Dying is a better option
At least when I die, I will stop hurting right?
M: Sam...
(I just came to hug her
The way she talked was scaring me
She sounded so distant
So lonely
The way her eyes looked solemn is scary
Especially when she was just talking about dying)
M: Sam... Don't say that
Didn't u promise to live for me?
You have to choose to live no matter what Sam.. Don't do this! Don't give up on me!
S: that's so cruel Mon
M: you promised me Sam!
S: and u promised that u would love me Mon!
U promised me you would never leave me! Yet you did it anyway! U don't even remember me Mon!
M: I didn't want this Sam!
I Won't let you go!
Never again Sam!
I promise I would never leave!
You promised me you'd stay by my side too right Sam?
u never break ur promises right?
S: hmm... I haven't yet
M: and u never will right?
S: I don't know Mon
I don't know anymore!
All I know Mon is im too tired!
I'm too tired of being scared!
I'm too tired of getting hurt!
I'm too tired of trying to understand u!
I'm too tired of everything Mon!
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GAP 2: ROAD TO FOREVER
Fanfictionfan made. Mon's & Sam's POV alternate storyline when book 1 ended. is love really all that we need? can we overcome our overwhelming gap when we fight for our love? what are we supposed to do when all we can do is fight a losing battle? Will we stil...
