HELLION #6: HIS CRAZY MADLY LOVE (R-18) ✔

SPECIAL CHAPTER

Special Chapter

Leighton Hellion POV

          SOMEONE will come into our lives who will change us or give us a lesson. Kaya nga sabi nila na kapag may umalis, may darating na mas better at mas deserve mo. Darating rin yung taong 'di ka iiwan, hindi mapapagod sayo at mamahalin ka higit pa sa buhay niya.

Yung taong sasamahan ka at pipiliin kang makasama araw-araw. Pero syempre, may darating para baguhin ang buhay mo o 'di kaya'y para matuto ka at mag-iiwan ng aral sayo.

Kaya naman nung dumating si Shayna sa buhay ko? Marami ang nagbago. I thought I would never be okay and I would never recover from my mental illness. I thought that I would stay in darkness forever and that I would never be given a chance to be happy.

I was lost, I became crazy and depressed. I thought I would be trapped in my dark past forever. But Shayna came unexpectedly. She came to rescue me and help me. Siya ang hulog ng langit sa akin, nagkaroon siya ng malaking parte sa buhay ko.

I also found my happiness when I met her. Dahil kay Shayna kaya na-overcome ko ang takot at trauma ko. Siya ang naging lakas ko, siya ang kasiyahan ko.

She chose and loved me when I was weak. She loved me at my worst and accepted me for who I am. She is the reason why I chose to forget my past to become a better person.

I fight my fear because of her. I want her to love me and prove to her that I am a deserving guy for her. She made me stronger and helped me face my fear.

I thought my life would be meaningless.

I thought my life would be empty and would be rubbish. Pero binigyang buhay at kulay ni Shayna ang buhay ko nang mag-krus ang landas naming dalawa.

Pinaramdam niya sa akin ang pagmamahal at kung paano pahalagahan na hindi ko naramdaman sa magulang ko at sa unang babaeng minahal ko. Pinarealize niya sa akin na hindi ako patapon, na mahalaga rin ako at dapat ring mahalin.

Maybe she wasn't my first love and she wasn't the first girl I met, but she became my greatest true love that I would never trade for anything or anyone. She is the most important to me now. She is my life, my dream and I can't face my future without her.

I love her more than anything.

I will never leave her. Ang tanga ko na lang siguro kung ipagpapalit ko pa siya sa iba. But no, I will still choose her no matter what. At araw-araw ko siyang pipiliin na makasama at mahalin. Only God knows how much Shayna means to me. And she will forever have a special place in my heart.

I made a lot of mistakes. Kaya ayokong maulit ang dati at makagawa ulit ng pagkakamali na pagsisisihan ko lang rin sa bandang huli. Nagsisisi na ako at nabayaran ko na rin lahat ng mga kasalanan ko. Once is enough, twice is too much. And I don't want to disappoint my favorite lady whom I love the most.

     Marami rin akong natutunan.

And I'm thankful that I learned my lesson. One of the best lessons I learned is, it's okay to be you. It's okay to work hard and be a dreamer. It's okay to dream big and make it bigger. It's okay to have ambition in life but it's wrong to choose the wrong path to achieve your dreams.

     It's okay to fall apart.

It's okay not to be perfect and make mistakes. It's okay to hurt, cry and be lonely. It's okay to do bad things and realize all the things you've done wrong.

Hindi masama na maging masama, pero hindi rin masama na maging mabait at makagawa ng kabutihan. Because for me? If I didn't make a lot of mistakes, I wouldn't change and grow. I will not be able to realize all my mistakes and learn to repent.