he saved me

break up

Severus's pov:

After everything was handeld with remus I went to check on y/n.

Classes hadn't started yet. Most students go to have breakfast now.

I walk into her dorm, her roomates were already gone.
"Y/n?" I call her name but she's asleep.
She looks exhausted and has extreme bags under her eyes.
I sat down next to her and whisperd.
"I'm worried about you. I whish I knew what was going on"
I gave her a kiss on the forehead.
I was leaving when I noticed bandages.

Her sleeves were down a little revieling bandages, she continued to do it? I thought it was a one time thing?

I hold on to the door frame, not wanting to breakdown.
I knew y/n wasn't herself but I didn't know it was this bad.
Even earlier she sounded like a different person. But I didn't think she would self harm again.

I walk out the dungeons and go to minerva.

She was in her classroom trying to Balance being a teacher and headmistress.
"I was just getting up to eat breakfast " minerva said to me.
"Minnie" I spoke as I once again hold on to the wall trying not to breakdown.
I thought she would never do that again.
"What is it severus " she rushed up to me and put her hands on both my arms.

"Y/n is self-harming again"
Minerva's face shifted, just like mine did. We were both so worried about her but now this?

I explained to minerva everything that happend. Y/n being in the dark forest and lupin...to me seeing her bandages.

"So she doesn't know we know?"
"She does. I saw blood dripping of her arms a few days ago"
I didn't know how the help y/n. She made it clear that she doesn't need help. But I cant let her Hury herself again.
"I don't know what to do minerva "
I'm desperate for advice
"Alot had happend severus. And she blames herself for everything. Show her that she's not to blame, and then try asking her what she needs"
I agreed and we went to the great Hall to have dinner.

"Professor snape?" The Potter boy asked as I walked passed them.
"We're is y/n" he went on.
"She's in bed, I'd leave her alone for now" I tried to walk away but then rhe weasly boy spoke  (fred)
"Is she oke? She's so distant lately. She's really not herself "
I couldn't tell him about y/n struggels.

"I'm not y/n idk how she feels you should ask her when she wakes up" I say cold and walk away.
We got sit and have breakfast.
I was contemplating if I should wake y/n up for food.
I'll wake her up for lunch. So she has some sleep.

I had a few classes and it was time for lunch. So I went to get y/n.

I come in her dorm and she's still asleep.
"Y/n sweetheart wake up" I gently rub her upper arms waking her up.
"You need to have lunch" I sit down next to her. As she rubbs her eyes.
"I'm soooo tired" her voice sound deeper then usual.

"I know honey but you need to eat"
"Is it cold lunch or warm lunch?" She asked as she got up and put her head on my shoulder. I wanted to ask her about sh but this is not the moment.
It's not the moment to give her dentition and to have such a difficult conversation.
"You can have a fruit bowl. Some soup. Or a hot toast with whatever you want to put on it"

"Is all three an option?" She got up and did her hair.
"I don't think it will taste soo good afterwards but sure" I laughed a little making her smile.
I just wasn't sure if it was real.
"I'll be down in a second. I need to put on different clothes"

I waited for her outside the slytherin Common room.
She came out wearing fresh clothes. And did her make-up.
"Since when do you wear foundation?" I ask.
"Since I look like a ghost who died from exhaustion"
We walked out to the great Hall.