Our Impending Sunset (On Hold)

Chapter 29 - Fiance

The sky seems so dark, I just noticed. Is it
going to rain? or the clouds just hiding the stars to prevent to light the sky?

I hugged myself while looking at the blank sky. Why is there no stars tonight?
Bahagya kong inilihis ang blazer para tignan ang oras sa pambisig kong relo.

Come on, ma'am. I know you can make it.

"Celeste." someone spoke beside me.

"Ma'am!" finally.

"Congratulations on your performance, you made the whole room proud." she assured that warms my heart.

"I'm glad you like my performance."

"Let's get straight to the point, what are we doing here?"

My heart started to race when I heard her question.

"Can I ask you a question instead?"

"You always ask a question, what is it this time?"

I can't remain to have eye contact with her so I face the wide blank sky instead and so is she.

"How do you feel right now?" dahil sa kaba hindi ko alam kung bakit iyan ang lumabas sa bibig ko.

"I'm fine, I guess?" she sounds like she's not sure of it, napangiti ako at nanatiling naka tingin sa langit.

"Do you feel different?"

Natagalan pa itong sumagot kaya hindi ko mapigilang mapasulyap sakaniya.

"N-no, can you just get straight to the point?"

"Impatient as always.." I chuckled, "If you're going to ask me ma'am, I am, iba sa pakiramdam kapag ikaw ang kasama ko," humarap ako sakaniya para ipakita ang totoong nararamdaman ko.

Hindi ito nagsalita at nanatiling naka tingin lang din sakin. Hinugot ko na ang lahat ng lakas ng loob ko para makipagtitigan sa nakakalunod niyang mga mata. I looked at her lovingly.

"I like you, ma'am Red, nan jeongmal dangsin-eul joh-ahaeyo," I wholeheartedly uttered at nag-isang hakbang papalapit sakaniya.

I felt more nervous when her face suddenly went emotionless though I continued what I wanted to say.

"Not as my professor nor roommate but as someone I can adore, you never failed to make me feel different feelings, and even made me forget about my past. The comfort.. the comfort whenever you are near is the best feeling that you can give, ma'am.. Ikaw lang nakapagparamdam sakin no'n. You're just my cold roommate/professor at the start which I didn't expect to be my comfort person as the day goes by," memories of us watching the sunset and having moments together flooded my mind. "And at this moment I want to let you know how I really feel before you leave the apartment,"

Napakagat ako sa ibabang labi. Bakit wala man lang siyang sinasabi? ang kaba sa dibdib ko ay hindi ma alis alis. Kanina ko pa pinipigilan ang huwag mapaluha dahil sa kawalang reaksyon niya ngunit hindi ko na kayang itago pa dahil nagsimula nang mamuo ang mainit na tubig sa gilid ng mga mata ko.

"What's the point right? you're straight, I'm just saying this because I know I have to," I continued and didn't blink to prevent my tears from falling.

"You done?" her voice was so icy that I couldn't find myself to speak.

I nodded as pain hugged my chest. I don't know how to feel. I can't form a word, and seems like I forgot the whole alphabet. I bit my inner cheek to prevent my tears from flowing but it didn't help. I feel suffocated..