The Demigod From Asgard - A Steve Rogers x Reader Story

Chapter 82: A Chance

A/N: We're officially in the Endgame now! So for all of those that have missed our reader, she'll be popping up very soon!

Warnings: Angst! Language! Talk of Grief and moving on!

5 years since the snap

Steve's mood was a direct reflection of the weather a dark and gloomy day, thick fog covering everything, even JJ's excited mood for the first day of first grade could pull Steve out of his slump. 5 years on since Steve started seeing his therapist about depression and grief, he still had days when it felt impossible to get out of bed.

He'd hoped that after taking JJ to school and going out for a run with Scout would help improve his mood, but it didn't. so much so that he even considered cancelling today's support group. Struggling to see how he could be any help to others when he could barely help himself.

Nevertheless, the sense of duty drove him to attend. The small room in the community centre seeming more dark and gloomy than before. The group was smaller than usual, people seemingly having the same sort of day as him. The core members of the group were still there, including the man, Joe, who inspired Steve to start the whole thing up.

"so.. I, uh, went on a date the other day," Joe told the group as part of the catch-up portion of the session, each member telling the group what changes, big or small happened, Steve telling the group how JJ started first grade.

"it's the first time in five years, you know? I'm sitting there at dinner... i- i- didn't even know what to talk about" Joe sighed and looked over at Steve.

Steve nods sympathetically, knowing the weight everyone carried around on their shoulders, the extra baggage caused by the snap "what did you talk about?" Steve prompted.

"eh, same old crap, you know how things have changed, my job, his job, how much we miss the Mets... and then things got quiet... then he cried as they were serving the salads" Joe sighed shaking his head.

"what about you?" another member asked.

"I cried just before dessert" Joe answers with a sigh "but I'm seeing him again tomorrow so..."

"that's great" steve nods "you did the hardest part you took the jump, you didn't know where you were gonna come down, and that's it, it's those little brave baby steps we gotta take to try and become whole again, try and find purpose" steve sighs his mind going instantly to JJ.

"I went into the ice in '45, right after I met my first love... woke up 70 years later, life turned upside down, didn't think I'd be lucky again and then I met the woman that became my wife, and while she's not around anymore it's a reminder that you gotta move on" Steve sighs

"you gotta move on" he repeats mostly for the benefit of himself, reminding himself that it would be what you wanted, no matter how hard it was "the world is in our hands, it's left to us guys as we gotta do something with it otherwise... Thanos should have killed all of us"

Silence falls in the room as everyone takes in what he said, a few people nodding, some wiping away stray tears.

"do you think you'll find someone again?" one of the ladies asks.

Steve sighs deeply, crossing his arms over his chest as he thought "honestly, I don't know, maybe... life gave me a second chance with Y/N, it was rough at times and we didn't get to do everything we planned to, but we made it work, we had our son..." steve sighs before shaking his head "it still seems so fresh, friends have tried to push me into it but it just doesn't feel right, I feel like I'm cheating on her still" Steve has to bite his lips slightly to stop himself from crying "but that doesn't it mean it won't, I know Y/N would want me to be happy and move on and maybe in a few years JJ will have a mom again, but right now I'm just not ready"