The Demigod From Asgard - A Steve Rogers x Reader Story

Chapter 77: The Fives Stages to Moving On

Warnings: Heavy Angst! Grief! Suicidal Thought! Alcholism! Language! Tiny bit of fluff!

The days following the teams visit to Thanos' farm were a blur. Steve couldn't say what happened if he tried. He just didn't remember.

When he woke up one morning he could hear JJ awake in his crib on the other side of the room. He was babbling but Steve could tell he was getting frustrated and he wanted to get out. He also knew that if he was determined enough he probably could climb out himself.

Pushing the covers off him Steve got up stretching out his back before sighing deeply as his shoulders slumps. As he looked over at JJ he could see his smile growing once he saw his dad.

"Dada!" JJ squeals holding his arms out and making a grabbing motion.

"I'm coming, I'm coming" Steve sighs walking over and lifting JJ out of his crib.

Resting JJ on his hip, he brushed his short blond messy hair down with his hand. JJ looked around the room as he sucked on his thumb.

"Dat?" JJ asks pointing over to the dresser.

Steve looks over where JJ was pointing, his breath catching when he sees the two stuffed teddys. He walks over picking up the teddy that had his suit and shield.

"This is dada" Steve says showing it to JJ.

"Dada" JJ says patting the teddy on its head.

"And this one is-" Steve starts his voice dying in his throat as he tried to finish his sentence, picking up your teddy.

"Mama" JJ says reaching for it.

"Yeah its mama" Steve says choking on his words slightly.

JJ grabs your teddy hugging it closely, Steve had to bite on his lower lips to stop himself from crying. Tears blurring his vision slightly. JJ smiles up at him making steve give him a weak smile.

"Okay you stay with mama while I got have a shower, I'll be right back, scream if you need me okay?" Steve says as he puts JJ in his playpen.

JJ nods as if he actually understood what Steve was saying. A small chuckle escapes his lips as he looks down at his son.

"Clever boy" Steve smiles bending down kiss the top of his head.

Once Steve was showered and dressed he took JJ to the communal kitchen for breakfast. JJ was determined to keep your teddy with him, so much so Steve had to put his diplomatic skills to use to avoid and meltdown and get him to put down his teddy and eat.

Steve set the teddy down on the table so JJ could still see it, but it was out of reach to avoid getting messy. There was no one else in the kitchen, everyone had pretty much gone their separate ways already. Carol had gone to go help other planets along with Rocket and Nebula. Rhodey had left to go help Pepper with Tony, and Thor had left to go see if he could find the remaining Asgardians. Leaving just Steve, Nat and Bruce at the compound.

Once JJ had finished eating he reached for the teddy again, whining in annoyance that he couldn't reach it. He complained even more when Steve wiped his face and the tray in front of him. Nearly at full breakdown when Steve finally passed him the teddy, the meltdown completely avoided. Leaving Steve to finish his toast and coffee in peace.

"Morning" Nat greets as she walks in.

"Morning" Steve sighs glancing up at her.

He went to ask her how she slept but he already knew the answer. None of them were sleeping well, a full undisturbed night's sleep seemed like a distant memory to Steve now.