anxiety for living

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It's all in my mind
Breathe.
In for four
Out for eight
Ready?
Go.
1....2...3....4...
And Breathe out
1...2...3...4...5....6....7....8
Oh did that not work
Let's try again
1...2....3...4...5...6...7...8....
9?
10?
11.
12....
We could go all the way to 100
Maybe even longer
But I don't think you can hold your breath that long..
One more time
1.2.3.
OH FUCK IT
why should I "breathe it out" when you say this air isn't for me
Our lives come with a fee
A short life experience kit
That our lives are no better than everyone else's
Why should I stay calm when I see no future that doesn't end in a bad way
Why would I live a life when I'd have to pay to survive
I was told I could be anything that I wanted to be
It seems like we were just told that to keep us alive
The world has gone, well its just gone
There is no real freedom
We are just pawns
WHY SHOULD I STAY FUCKING CALM
IM ANGRY
I HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE
UNLESS THEYER going to take that away to
I want to run and never stop
Live a life that's worth living
But I can't
I'm not good enough for that

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