so far this is my life

this is me

I have demons. I hear things that i shouldn't hear. I see things that normal people can't see. I feel things that you can't. I go through emotions like their candy. Im bipolar and a gemini. Many people think im a monster or an ass. Im gaurded because I've been hurt too many times to trust someone fully again. I tried, and i got my heart ripped to pieces by "friends" and some "family" members. I dont want kids, but im good with them. I have fur babies and pet crabs. Im currently trying to get a puppy and fish. Im trying really hard to make it to college, but im not fully sure Illinois make it there. My friends are dicks but i love them. All of my friends and everyone ive ever met think im an ass who cant be nice and just says whatever. Im not being an ass, i say things no one else will. Im not a monster. I am  a girl who is struggling to survive her own mind. I am someone with really bad anger issues and mood swings. I am someone who can hurt you without putting my hands on you. I am someone who doesnt like certain people. I am someone who will not accept an apology if it doesnt come directly from the person and if its not meant. I will not put up with someone trying to disrespect me or my friends. Im not a touchy person so i show "emotions" through my acts. I like to give gifts when i see its nessicary. I like to get gifts back especially if its my birthday. It doesnt even have to be bought, i enjoy things if its made for me or like a movie night or being with friends. Im a complicated person but i swear if you got to know me youd love me. you either love me or you hate me. Your choice but choose it wisely. Im not nice to people i hate or who hate me. Ill be nicer to someone i like. My favorite colors are red and balck,emeralde, pastel blue, greyish blue and then gloden brown. i dont like fake people. i hate when you lie to me knowing ill find out the truth one way or another. I dont tolerate being treated like shit especially if ive tried to be a good friend to you. But i guess none of that is worth it to some of you huh? sad life. Anyways this was some of my life so thanks for reading.