so far this is my life

im done.

I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. I will no longer live my life like this. I will no longer deal with this pain. I will no longer hold onto the fact that you will never stop hurting me. It shouldn't even hurt at this point, but it still does. Please..don't talk to me. You couldn't possibly understand what I'm feeling because of you on a daily basis. You can't possibly understand the betrayal I feel because of you, and I shouldn't even feel this way. You can't possibly understand what I'm feeling right now. If you loved me like you claimed you did, like how I still cling to the words.. you'd let me go. You wouldn't let me feel this way anymore. You'd end my pains of you. You'd set me free. Tell me I'll find someone better. Tell me there's more for me out there. Tell me you'll be okay in life without me. Tell me what I need to hear from you to go. You have hurt me in so many ways, and I have stayed for so long. You never even apologized to me. How many times have I apologized to you? How many times have I hurt you just to get even with you hurting me? And kt wasn't even on purpose! I started treating you how you treated me. But I was nicer still in the end. I love you. I'll always love you, but this is just too much pain. Maybe in a few years..if we're really meant to be together, we'll find our way back to each other, but for now .. you gotta let me go. I gotta let you go.